Nauseated....

So I was called in to County jury duty today for the first time ever. I don't know what I was expecting. But it wasn't to find that I would sitting for a murder trial. Of two adults and one unborn baby. The defendent was sitting right there. Is that normal? It really freaked me out. And the general details they gave us (the 50 randomly selected jurors) were disturbing enough for me to almost start crying. Like, I had to keep my eyes really open and use all of my strength not to burst into tears. Here is far more detail than they gave us in the courtroom. About a 1/3 of the jurors had heard of the case. I hadn't-- but then again, I live under a rock: http://www.zwire.com/site/news.cfm?newsid=14665467&BRD=1679&PAG=461&dept_id=86218&rfi=6 And they were seeking the death penalty. Which I am not sure how I feel. I used to be very for the death penalty. But, I have had a hard times coming to terms with the hypocrisy of being staunchly pro-life and supporting the death penalty. And it is fine to think about the death penalty in the abstract. It is another to be on a panel where you decide if a man will spend his life in prison or will be executed. They asked us a ton of questions about moral, religious, ethical beliefs that would make us impartial on a death penalty case. Although I did not indicate that the death penalty being involved in this case would make me impartial, I really don't know if I could be a part of a trial that sentenced a man to death... I was relieved to be dismissed. This was their tenth day of selecting jury members. The trial starts tomorrow and I am very relieved to NOT be a part of it.