Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

First Day of School

Isaac has been asking for weeks when it will be time to go back to school.   He laid this outfit out several weeks in advance (purposely chosen to represent that he cared but not too much).  His schoolbag has been packed for at least 3 weeks with all of his new school supplies. Yesterday, he begged me to take him to the barber to freshen up his 'do which was an experience.  His dad handles the haircuts and the last time I took him for one he was an infant.


This morning as I was desperately hitting snooze, he came into my room fully dressed, book bag on and asked me to drive him over to school!


I think his day was a success.  To his great disappointment, his best friend Ethan is not in his class, but he likes several other kids that are.  He is excited that they are starting to do more flex grouping, which means he will get to spend time with some of other third grade teachers.  He is also already psyched up for the PSSA's (state tests which aren't even until spring).  I have talked a lot about opting him out of them but he came home begging me to allow him to take them.   I look at the pictures above and think about when he was a tiny kindergartner, and I really don't know where my baby has gone!  


My first day of school with kids was pretty good.  I am tired from being on my feet all day, but not as wiped out as I thought I would be.  

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Third Thursday Threads

It's time to get ready for school to start again.  That means getting my new classroom in order and actually getting dressed in something other than yoga pants.  As you can see from the background, I still have a long way to go to get the new room in order.   Bri was having a link up for geometric prints so I thought this dress would be perfect for the theme.


It first made it's appearance at brother's rehearsal dinner in my new favorite family photo of the three of us.
 
It's not a maternity dress but it works really well as one.  I expect to get a few more months worth of wear out of it.

Isaac was getting jealous and wanted in on the classroom self timer pics.  Of course, his new WWE championship belt had to make an appearance too.
 
 

 Happy Thursday everyone!


Lena B, Actually

Monday, November 5, 2012

Monday, Monday

NaBloPoMo...  National Blog Posting Month.  You might have seen is blowing up on some blogs you read.  Basically, bloggers hi-jacked National Novel Writing Month.  I am not going to participate daily, but I might steal a few of the writing prompts as they tickle my fancy. 

Today's writing prompt:

If you could live anywhere, where would it be?

Ryan and I have talked about the possibility of moving to New Jersey.   We are both beach people and with me having summers off, we would love to live closer to the shore.  It is also important to Ryan and I that we not move more than a 2 hours or so away from family. 

Ideally we would love to live somewhere right on the the Jersey Shore, like Ocean City, but unless we somehow hit the lottery, that probably won't happen.  

Speaking of the Jersey Shore, I have my own "Tales from the Teachers Lounge" sort of story.  After the worst of Sandy passed over us and we returned to school one teacher was asking her second grade colleague if she had a chance to go and check on her shore house.  One of the second graders piped up "Yeah!  Did you hear?  Snooki is homeless!  Snooki doesn't have a place to live now from the Hurricane!". 

Poor Snooki....

Have a great Monday!





stillbeingmolly


Tuesday, October 30, 2012

All Grown Up


Second Grade - East Coventry Elementary School
Teacher: Miss Egan
Favorite Subjects: math
Favorite Special: gym
Least Favorite Subject: Social Studies
Best Friend: Eric
Favorite School Lunch: Wildcat pizza
Favorite Recess Activity: football and baseball
Favorite Snack: Cookies n Cream Hershey Bar
Favorite Thing to Wear: sports uniforms
Favorite Sports Teams: Phoenix Coyotes, New York Giants, Pittsburgh Steelers, Chelsea
Favorite TV Show: Sports Center
Favorite Singer: Mindless Behavior
 

Friday, August 24, 2012

is currently...

Loving: my new school and grade level team!  Don't get me wrong, I am still quite nervous and fairly overwhelmed with switching to a new school and grade level, but I am really enjoying my new school and coworkers. I was getting completely burnt out ready for a change from my old job, and this seems to be a good fit. The climate there is so relaxed and friendly.  This week was just meetings and classroom prep time, with an open house sprinkled in the mix.  I did get to meet a few of our kids and parents.  The kids show up Monday, so ready or not, here we go...

Reading: Janet Evanovich's Hot Six.  I think  I have blogged before that Ryan got me into the Stephanie Plum series.  Since he has been working like crazy this summer and I have hardly worked at all, I have caught up to him.  We are actually both reading this book.  We tried for about 24 hours to share the same copy  before Ryan got completely exasperated with me and downloaded it to the iPad.  These books are soooo funny!


Watching: Project Runway and Modern Family, the latter I have just started from Netflix.  I am fully aware that I am extremely late to the Modern Family party. 


The other night I just wanted some mindless television to relax to in bed and ended up on the Style Network  watching some old reruns of Sex and the City.  It was towards the end of the show when Miranda has Brady and is just struggling to be a good mom and maintain the status quo as a hot shot lawyer.  Finally she ended up going to tell her boss she was cutting back on work and then walked home and put Brady to bed.  I ended up totally tearing up, raising my fist in solidarity and saying "You go Miranda, you go girl!" When I used to watch that show originally I always thought she sort of a less interesting character, but now that I am a mom, I relate to her in a totally different way.  I kind of love her and want to be her.... ANYWAYS...

Thinking About: the Save the Dates that still need to be addressed and sent, the cake people I need to call, how long it's been since I vaccummed my carpets, etc. etc.  Between starting a new job, planning a wedding, keeping up with Isaac and all of his commitments, my mind always seems to be racing and it seems like I am always trying to squeeze in one more thing.

Anticipating: some family bonding time this weekend.  We have been making great use of our season passes to Dorney Park and I anticpate a few more trips up there before the season is over.





 

I'm not going to lie, I am also looking forward to school starting.  The summer is so relaxing , but Isaac and I thrive on a full schedule and routine.  I like lazy summer days with nothing on the agenda, but I am ready for the hustle and bustle of fall.

Wishing: that Ryan has some luck on the job search.  We aren't too happy with his current job but it has been slow going finding something that is a good fit (hours, salary, commute, a neighborhood where there aren't bullets flying regularly, etc).  Keep your fingers crossed that he is able to stumble across the right job. 

Making me Happy:  So many things!  These new shoes (pink AND studded AND less than 20 bucks?!  I hit the motherload!). 

 
Lush products.  I am mildy obsessed with that store.  In the past month I have bought this and this and this (and this and this and this...).  I bought their little foot care kit and made Ryan use it with me.  Here is a shot of us in the midst of our foot mask.
 

Monday, August 20, 2012

Teacher Week - Teacher Must Haves

Hello-- I am joining in the Teacher Week Link-Up from Blog-Hoppin.



Here are a few things that are must-haves in my classroom.

1. Fun bulletin board borders (although I have nothing up on the bulletin board yet!) I chose this leopard print from Michael's this year:

(they also have tiger , zebra, and rainbow leopard).  My seven year old son was very disgusted by this bulletin board and wanted to know why I couldn't just do apples.  I also used fabric instead of paper for the background.  It doesn't fade or show seams or holes. 

2. Highlighter tape -

Great for bringing student's attention to certain things in the textbook.  It peels right off when you are done.  It also comes in super giant roles to use on chart paper.

3. Sit and move cushions-


Great for my students with autism.  They can have the movement they crave while still remaining at their seats.



4. These puzzles (and all of the others like them) from Lakeshore. 

They have all different reading ones, math ones, shapes, colors, sight words, word families, etc.  They are great to throw out as busy work for the kids and don't involve writing.  (Many of my students have OT issues and hate writing). 

Thanks for hoppin' over!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

well....

Bad news:
I just started classes again for the spring semester. Six hours a week of night class (plus a 40ish minute commute each way twice a week) is looking like a bit more than I can handle without a serious hit to my sanity. It's going to be an exhausting semester.

Good news:
Both of my classes are really interesting. I have Strategies for the English Language Learner which is taught by someone who is actually an ESL teacher. The other class is a math methods class which is taught by a principal in a local school district. I really think I am going to enjoy both of the classes and take away a lot from them. Also, as much as I love being a teacher, I also really enjoy being a student. I'm glad that teaching is a profession that requires you to be a lifelong learner.

Good news:
I have lost ten pounds since Christmas from cutting out sweets, eating more veggies, fruits and whole foods and working out.

Bad news:
I didn't work out ONE TIME this week. And I had a serious brownie binge this week. I swear, it's like when one thing in my life gets out of balance (for example, starting up classes again) everything else just goes to hell.
Good news:
I have a fabulous first grader who is a star reader. He even went and read to some kindergarteners as a special reward the other day (he choose a book about hockey to read to them. I'm sure they were thrilled.) We seem to have gotten over the phase of terrible behavior at school we were going through, which is such a relief.

Bad news:

He has been sick for more than ten days. He is better now than he was last weekend, but lots of coughing, runny nose, sore throat, etc. etc.



Blah...

Sunday, October 16, 2011

keeping pace

Hey, happy fall y'all!
My parents came down yesterday to watch Isaac's soccer game and then we had a nice lunch at Friendly's. It was a perfect crisp, cool, autumn day to watch some clueless little kids kick a soccer ball around. Isaac ended up delaying the whole game because he decided to swing on the goalpost and then his cleat got all tangled up in the net. He has turned into a little bit of a showboat too, trash talking a little bit and excessively celebrating after he scores a goal. I'm trying to nip that in the bud. Two of our games at the beginning of the season got rained out and they added them back on to the end of the season, which makes it feel like soccer will never end. Don't get me wrong-- I love soccer but I'm ready to not have a commitment every Saturday and Wednesday night and to get Isaac back on his regular weekend schedule with his dad.
We had debated trying to make it into the city the for the Freedom March yesterday but we just didn't have enough time. In the evening we went to a cornmaze with some people from church. Isaac has a great time. Tromping around miles and miles of corn is not exactly my favorite way to pass time, but the kids had a lot of fun. We got home around 9 and by 10 I was nodding off. I guess my body really is slowing down now that I'm older. I feel like I can barely hang after 11, which is so disappointing. Pretty lame. Oh well.
Maybe I am still recovering from Tuesday night when my friend Jami and I went to see the Indigo Girls. When we went to Hershey Park a few weeks ago, we listened to their live album the whole time. We talked about how we would both like to see them in concert, if they were even still touring. When I got home I got online and discovered not only were they still touring, but they would be in Philly in just two weeks. My parents bought my ticket as an early birthday present. We had a great time mixing and mingling with a crowd of mostly butchy middle aged lesbians (let's just say, there was a TON of flannel being worn that night). I think going out on a weeknight just through me all off though, and I feel like I still can't recover. #lame
Today we did church. Last week the Bishop came into our YSA Sunday School class and read a letter that said at Stake Conference in a few weeks they will be officially organizing a YSA branch in our stake. Therefore, our YSA activities and Sunday School will be discontinued. I had mixed feelings about this. On the one hand, I am about to age out of the YSA program anyways, and even though I could technically attend for another year or so, I had planned to officially call it quits when I turn 30 in a few weeks. I'm ready for that phase of my life to be through. On the other hand, this means I won't have a calling any more teaching the Sunday School class and coordinating activities, leaving me open for a dreaded primary calling (I'm telling you, with as many kids in our ward as we have on the spectrum, I still don't understand how I've escaped being put in there for as long as I have).
Anyways, after this whole thing went down, I filled in as a RS teacher. My lesson went okay (I mean, you can't make family history that relevant or interesting) but they must have been happy with it, because then they asked me be a substitute teacher next week for a teaching for our times lesson (on this talk, which I'm actually pretty excited about).
Apparently someone has an insane level of confidence in me, because today they pulled me out and asked if I would officially accept a calling as a RS teacher. The bishopric counselor acknowledged that lessons in RS lately have been "controversial" (I may or may not have audibly snorted at that one) and encouraged me to remember that there are sisters from our ward from all walks of life: recent converts, people who have grown up in Utah, people who have not grown up in Utah, people in our ward who were very liberal politically and people who are extremely conservative and it's important to be sensitive if a lesson topic could be controversial. Of course, I agreed to that. (I guess my violent rant to our RS president following a comment that Michele Bachmann was a great political candidate for LDS people to vote for must have been passed along. Two weeks later she announced that there was to be NO political discussion in RS, which is A-OK with me). So anyways, I guess that's what I get for complaining about the lessons and discussion. Now I'm in charge of them once a month.
What else? Work... has been exhausting. Another year with two students with really challenging behaviors that monopolize all of my time and stress out the whole team. It's been the same story every year since I started, just insert a different kid. I don't know how much more I can do it, honestly. The other day I found myself fantasizing about starting a whole new career, which is pretty terrifying. It's insane to think that I am so disgruntled with public ed, when I haven't even made a dent in paying off all of the loans I took out to become qualified to do it. I'm just trying to take it a day at a time and I'm reminding myself that I am taking the steps I need to become more qualified and eventually relocate to a district with more resources but it still sucks. I've always said that if I had to work 40 hours a week (or whatever) that I at least wanted to be doing something that makes a difference. Right now I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels...
My place is finally decorated for Halloween. I found this great subway art (I print her stuff out for almost every holiday and season for supereasy decor). Usually I print it out in 8 by 10 but I happened to have a 16 by 20 inch frame in the closet that I wasn't using. I think it looks great. I had it printed out at Costco for about 6 bucks.
Anyways, I should get up off the coach and get ready for the week. Have a great one guys!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

September is here!

It's been a while! First of all, this happened: My baby is in first grade!! It's been back to school in every sense around here. Isaac is attending first grade, I am teaching an incredibly lively bunch of all new first graders, and I am also taking a grad class as well. It was a bit of a shock to the system to go from the dog days of summer, to the insanity that is September, but we're rolling with it and doing well I think. I actually enjoy the busyness of the school year, but it takes me a bit to settle into it and get into a routine. By Thursday night I felt like I had been run over by a Mack truck, so I was grateful to have Friday off. So on our day off we were about to head out to Leola to see my mom when we discovered this:

(the flat tire, not the dent. That was always there)

There was a huge chunk of metal sticking out of it. My rear tires are almost bald, so I figured better that it happened on my day off from school when I had time to deal with it. We managed to get Firestone to squeeze us in and we got some new tires. I'm learning to live with the driver window never going down, so hopefully this will be our last car expense for a while *knocks on wood*.

Anyways, while we were waiting for the AAA guy to come and change my tire for me (yeah, super lame, I know. I get the steps in the process of changing a tire, but this is what my 40 bucks a year goes towards. I don't have to get down the ground a try to change lug nuts and whatnot.) I decided to clean out my trunk. My trunk has pretty much been a disaster for several years. Just to give you an idea of how long it has been since I cleaned it out thoroughly, I unearthed this:

back there, along with a receiving blanket. Anyways, all of the junk is gone and so are all of the Christmas tree needles and beach sand. It was a productive 45 minutes until the guy showed up.

Anyways, that was only a minor setback and we made it to Leola without any trouble. We slept over and then woke up early to go to Blue Ball Days which sounds gross but it's actually when the whole town of blue ball has a big yard sale! I scored some great deals. Brand new soccer cleat for Isaac for only .50, two Ramona books (I'm always on the lookout for those and Junie B Jones) but the jackpot was the lady who was dumping all of her Stampin Up stuff. A whole table full of stamps. I had to restrain myself. I got an Easter set, two Christmas sets and a invitation stamp. So that was exciting.

So what else? Oh! I won a blog giveaway! I enter them all of the time and I have *never* won. And this is such a cool prize too. Teaching in Pink is sending me this book. After only four days with this new group of firsties, I am open to any and all ideas on classroom management. So I'm pretty pumped for that.

Isaac and I watched a neat documentary series on Netflix streaming called "Circus". I guess it aired on PBS originally. It made both of us long to run away and live life under the big top.

One last thing, I was so excited to see these out on the shelves:

LOVE THEM!!! I'm was excited when we were driving home to see an Amish stand with gourds in it. I'm excited to decorate the house for fall and HALLOWEEN. When is it okay to start putting Halloween decorations up? Thoughts? Well, have a great week.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

advice for new teachers...

Today's topic is advice for new teachers.... which... I feel like a pretty new teacher myself... but here goes. (FYI-- for those who have hopped over, I do first grade autistic support in a cotaught classroom)

1. Make friends with your speech therapist, OT and PT. They are a wealth of information and are usually happy to share ideas and resources. I am amazed when I am totally frustrated with a situation and I bounce it off of one of them, how they might see the situation from a totally different point of view than I do.

2. When writing IEP goals, try to align them with data you are already collecting anyways. We do tons with DIBELS data, so I have started including that as reading goals. Why do double work?

3. It's okay to shut the door and cry during your prep period once in a while. It happens to everyone. Heck, I cried on my way home from school pretty much every night in August, September and October of my first year. But it got easier.

4. Don't be afraid to ask questions or ask for help. Everything will be so overwhelming at first and you won't be able to figure it all out on your own.

5. Have a plan B (and a plan C). And it's okay if, once in a while, your plan C is playdough. I've had all kinds of kids since I started teaching and playdough is a universal pleaser.

6. Don't be tempted to go crazy in the teacher store. Sure at the beginning it's fun to splurge, but so many things can be made, or picked up at yard sales, or inherited from other teachers who no longer need them, or discovered in the closet of that empty classroom... Ask around first before you shell out cash.

7. Listen to little Johnny's long rambling story. You might be the only person who gives him some undivided attention that day.

8. Let people push you a little when it comes to letting your IEP kids bloom. This can be a hard one. I looped with my students with autism for three years and found myself making snap judgement on what I felt they could and couldn't do. It came from a place of good intentions: the mama bear in me wanting to protect them and shield them from "failing". There were definitely times when a colleague or supervisor pushed me to have a child participate in something and I would be surprised at how well they would exceed everyone's expectations.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

ready to pay the price

*Sigh*. So it looks like I am going back to grad school again.

Long story (somewhat) short, I graduated from good ole Widener with a Master's of Special Ed, highly qualified to elementary education. As I interviewed for jobs it became very clear that the fact that I didn't hold a certification in elementary education was a huge strike against me, which is kind of infuriating to discover you are barely qualified after you have paid thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars to get your degree.

I eventually did get hired in my current district. It has always been in the back of my mind to get to get back to work on my cert (see last year's goal list at the top of this page). This year when I watched some of my peers be laid off or cut to part time as our lovely Governor slashed funding to public education, it hit me that if I were to be laid off it would be impossible to go up against huge pools of applicants who were all more qualified than me. I would end up making hoagies at Wawa or ringing people up at Sears for the rest of my life. So this summer I got serious about getting back to grad school and just in the nick of time, as I found out that all of the certification requirements are changing very soon. I need to take 6 classes in the next year so get my stuff together before all the certification requirements change in the state of PA. Otherwise, I will have to take 11 classes under the new certification qualifications. Which was a little different than what I had pictured in my head (maybe taking one or two online courses and sitting for another PRAXIS exam).

I'm not going to lie, I had a pretty big breakdown about this. In order to qualify for financial aid loans I would need to take at least two classes in the spring semester, three in the summer and one next fall. If you were with me back in the Myspace blog days, you would remember that I am no stranger to working fulltime, doing grad school fulltime and juggling being a mom. It's not impossible. I have done it, but the tradeoff isI pretty much had no money, no life, no friends, my mother was Isaac's primary caretaker instead of me, and I was constantly under a high level of stress. The thought of going back to that lifestyle, without even the support of living with my parents was completely overwhelming. Not to mention the thought of taking out more loans to pay for it all had me panicked, as I already have an overwhelming amount of debt relating to school costs. I just really thought that chapter of my life was closed and the thought of going back to that pretty much caused me to totally fall apart.

Anyways, enough blathering on and on about this. As I do whenever I make a major financial decision, I asked my dad for his take on it and he helped me brainstorm some other solutions. I had forgotten to factor in tuition reimbursement, and when you take that into account my work will pay for a considerable amount of the cost, which means that I can take the first two classes one at a time, instead of doubling up. I will can do the bulk of the work during the summer when I am doing nothing anyways and I will only have to take out loans for three classes instead of six. This makes me feel better about things.

I have a friend whose dad is very into Indian Astrology and a few years ago he did a reading for me based on my birthdate, time and location. He reported that I would eventually find a lot of success in my career, but that I would have to struggle against many obstacles before I found that success. Anyways, I don't know how exactly you define "success" as a public school teacher anyways. I just feel like I have taken the long way around over and over when it comes to being a financially independent real live grown up and it's frustrating. It would just be nice to be be on top of the bills, maybe have something in the savings account, and not have something like having a fuel pump be a total financial crisis.

Anyways, I had all of this kind of stuff floating in my head when I was biking along the River Trail earlier in the week. This plaque was on one of the benches along the way.

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And actually, that quote sort of helped me refocus.

Monday, June 13, 2011

An interview with Isaac, as he graduates kindergarten

I was inspired by Sarah over at Clover Lane:

I am really good at: math

I like to: do the monkey bars at recess

Someone that makes me laugh: Damien

One word that describes you: difficult (I swear, no prompting from me on that one!)

I am really happy when: it's my birthday

I am really sad when: I have to wash the dishes

My favorite book: The Story of Darth Vader
My favorite TV show: the NBA
My favorite vacation: Orlando, FL
I like school when: it's calendar time
I don't like school when: we have to be quiet
My favorite season: Summer
My favorite toy: Wii
My worst nightmare: the one about Michael Jackson's Thriller with zombies
Things that make me mad: when mom takes my Wii away
Favorite sport: Basketball
I like my Dad because: he takes me to play with Junior
I like my Mom because: she lets me use the computer
I like my family because: they are fun

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Inspired Apple

Linky party over at The Inspired Apple (have I mentioned my obsession with teacher blogs? Maybe someday I will start my own.. you know... in my spare time...)

You know you do 1/2 autistic support when:

  • You find yourself writing social stories about every bodily function you can dream of. (You think I'm kidding? My flashdrive has stories for nose-picking, farting, hands in the pants, why you wipe, why you shouldn't eat boogers, putting your pees and poops in the right place, etc, etc, etc.)
  • You can never have enough 3X5 cards, ziploc bags, post-its, white board markers or timers.
  • When you bring your own kid into your classroom he keeps exlaiming "Hey! This is *my* book/toy/sweatshirt/game".
  • On a date you find yourself asking the one you are with to slide his bottom over a little and he looks at you in complete horror (true story)
  • I saw this one on another blog and totally cracked up. Teachers in the hallway use a slightly different tone of voice when asking about a student referred to as only "your friend". My poor co-teacher this year has several "friends".
  • Certain names will now forever be off limits for your own children. They just instantly conjure up images of a certain student, for better or for worse.
  • You crack up daily at inventive spelling. (My favorite ever was the girl who wrote about "titty bars" which we later found out were "teddy bears").
  • The very first day on the job your assistant says "Do you drink?" and when you reply no, she says "Well you may want to start."
  • You find yourself discreetly sniffing students to try to figure out which one is making the room smell like old potatoes.
  • You consult with your OT like 489758475 times a day. And when she takes a sick day, you feel lost.
  • You keep M and M's and Hershey kisses in your desk drawer and delve into them aggressively when your students are at special. And when you randomly appear in coworkers' classrooms to ask them questions they immediately assume you are there to raid their stash.
  • You have to field questions from kindergarteners asking if "you've got a man".
  • The honor system snack box in the teacher's lounge is out of chocolate the day after the guy comes to restock it (and the gross peanut butter crackers sit lonely in the box for three more weeks).
  • There are never enough pencils. No matter what. And you discover that your student has been sitting there doing nothing for ten minutes because the one he has isn't sharpened and doesn't have an eraser.
  • Your students think you and your assistant live together.
  • You reflexively answer, "I don't know, can you?" every time a student says "Can I go to the bathroom?"
  • You cringe when you see adults forming letters by starting at the bottom or making other "mistakes". You have to bite your lip to keep from screaming "Magic C! Up like helicopter! Down and bump!"

But I love it!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

100th Day

Blah. Sorry I haven't updated el blogo lately. I've bit a bit overwhelmed with a high stress situation at work and it seems to have consumed me lately. I'm up all night worrying about it. I'm working long hours trying to complete a neverending list of to-dos. Anyways, I've given myself some of my own to dos as far as making myself more marketable and getting resume and whatnot together. Hopefully I will be able to manage my time and stress better and get back on course again and leave work at work. But in the mean time, I don't have much else to blog about. Here's what we spent a great deal of time working a little bit each night since we got the assignment tonight doing:

I had so many good intentions for super adorable projects that I have seen my students turn in over the years or on teacher blogs.

But it just didn't happen.

I've been so insanely busy had to resist the urge to "borrow" one of my student's projects for a while, as our 100th day was last week.

How are things in your neck of the woods?

Sunday, January 2, 2011

and now back to your regularly scheduled life

  • Ugh back to work tomorrow. Part of me looks forward to the return to routine, but part of me knows that it will be a disaster since Isaac and I have been staying up and waking up way too late. I have enjoyed the long lazy days, but a lack of structure definitely takes its toll. Too much TV, too much wii, too much junk food, etc.
  • I did get all of the Christmas decorations taken down, do some crafting, read some books, excercise a fair amount and finally catch up on laundry. Usually I just root through the laundry baskets and pull out socks, underwear, pajamas and workpants to wash. When we were briefly snowed in I did load after load of laundry. It got to the point where the drawers were totally full and there was still more to be put away. I counted, and I have 27 clean and ironed pairs of workpants in my closet! I was shocked. I mean, I only work five days a week and I frequently wear skirts or dresses too.
  • This inspired me to go through and get rid of clothes that are worn, faded, stained, just don't fit right, etc. I also managed to get Isaac to sort through a bin box of toys that have been in the basement for over a year now. I was reluctant to let some of them go, but he didn't seem to mind as much as me. Now I have a huge bag to take over to Goodwill this week.
  • I have quite a bit to look forward to this week though. I know some of my friends get annoyed by my insistence of planning ahead for social activities, but this is how I survive. I know that if I can hang in there x days, then I will get to do something fun. This week I am having dinner with a friend on Wednesday night, Friday I am hopping on a train to Philly to celebrate my girl Becca's birthday with some close girlfriends. We tend to celebrate our birthdays by dinners out and then going to dance clubs and/or piano bars in the Gayborhood. I believe that is the exact agenda for Friday, so I am looking forward to that.
  • Saturday I will be getting my car inspected (the brakes are really squeeling which is not good) and then going back into the city to see Mary Fahl in concert at the Tin Angel. I saw her in concert when I was hugely pregnant and sort of fell in love with her. I listened to her cds over and over during that time in my life, and her music takes me right back.
  • So looking forward to fun things should help me get through what will likely be a rough week back at school.
  • I will report on last year's goals soon and identify some new ones. I haven't updated that tab in ages. I didn't get to everything, but I did get to quite a bit.
  • Someone must have heard my rant because today they announced that our weekly FHE's are going to be replaced with monthly service projects. Now that I can handle. It might mean I can occasionally make it to Monday night yoga. I've sure missed it! They also asked me to speak in church next week, and asked me to sub for the Sunday School teacher. I will be very busy preparing for all of that.
  • I managed to remember to register Isaac for spring soccer. Thank goodness after the fall season fiasco. He is old enough now that he will have a practice on a weekday in addition to a Saturday game.
  • I think I'm getting the hang of Twitter. Although, I don't really need another social networking site to engage in heavy cyberstalking waste time. I decided I must become active on it though to prove that I am still young and relevant. It makes me feel so old to not understand it.
  • I ended up actually having a very enjoyable New Year's Eve, despite my prediction that it would be another unmemorable one. A few of my friends got together for a small party. The girls who hosted had their nephew there who is a year older than Isaac, so it worked out well to bring him along. I figured we would just drop by briefly, but Isaac was so well behaved we ended up staying till after 12. I was honestly impressed he could stay up so late. It was low key but very enjoyable.
  • Anyways, I should get off the computer and do lunches, lay out clothes, pack up bags for tomorrow. Have a lovely week!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

random work thoughts

Today at work one of my coworkers randomly said to "You are appreciated. Don't think you're not. I say it all the time."
I was so caught off guard.
Because, well, let's face it, teaching special ed in a high poverty area isn't exactly a job where people are showering you with praise or recognizing all the things you do. It's sad when it's actually jarring that someone tells you that you are doing an okay job and that they appreciate you. I guess this is partially because I think the loudest negative voice is my own. I have an unfortunate habit of looking at the best version of other people and comparing it to the worst version of myself. It's an inaccurate measuring stick.
I need to work on that.
And I need to make more of an effort to tell my coworkers that they are appreciated. And my students. And my family.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

warning: If you see me IRL I may rip your head off

Ugh. PMS + lack of sleep + too much work + overwhelming mommy guilt has turned me into a rather miserable person the past few days. I'm fairly sure even my own parents are screening their calls from me at this point. I'm only one person who is just spread too thin. I fell asleep face down on the couch for 30 minutes today at around 7 o'clock. So much for Zumba. I just can't make it. Anyways, Isaac's dad just got screamed at for insinuating that I wasn't putting forth an effort to get Isaac into a fall soccer program (backstory, I totally dropped the ball on sign-ups for his normal league, and it is too late for him to play. I have been scouring the internet, making phone calls etc, but everything is full, is for toddlers or is waaaaaaaaaaay too expensive. Now his dad wants me to go over to the fields of his old league and just linger around asking people if he can play. I'm not going to do that. I feel HORRIBLE about missing sign ups but when it really comes down to it, he will play in the spring and if he misses one season of soccer is it really the end of the world? No, it is not.). Anyways, I ended up just straight up psychotically screamed at him about how come it's always up to me to figure this stuff out and he could just drive over here and linger around the soccer fields like a creeper if it's so freakin important to him and it's so easy for him to be critical when I am the one that does 98% of the parenting. He was being nagging and irritating, that was certainly not an appropriate response. He even said to me "If I was screaming at you the way you are talking to me how would you feel?" and I had to admit I would hang up on him.
My cavity is killing me. I MUST call and schedule my root canal I have been in denial about needing all summer now. It is to the point where the entire side of my head is radiating pain almost all of the time, which is certainly not helping my irritability. Tomorrow is back to school night (for me as a teacher, not me as a parent). 13 hours of work. Ugh, enough said.
I haven't seen my friends or done anything social in several weeks due to wedding mania. This weekend I will be out of town again for my old college roommate Nicole's wedding in New York. That puts me out of town something like 5 out of the last 6 weekends.
I'm out of cat food.
My sink is filled with dishes and I am always out of clean spoons.
I have nothing creative to pack for lunch.

And poor Isaac. What I really need to do is slow down and make time to give him my complete and undivided attention. To stop hurrying him along rushing him in and out of clothes and in and out of the car and shuffling him from babysitter to babysitter. It's too much.

Anyways, I will end the whine-fest now. I'm going to forget the pile of work I brought home with me and just go to bed early. Yes my life is an out of control carousel but everything is harder to deal with when you are exhausted and lonely.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Quickly

  • I survived the wedding-- part 1 at least. Next weekend will be about 17 hours in the car with my parents for the North Carolina reception. Assuming that a hurricane doesn't cancel it.
  • I would post a picture but I didn't take a single one. Maybe some of my relatives will send a few my way so I can share how awesomely tan I was (oh and I guess you might want to see my sister too).
  • In the midst of wedding madness school has started again and I went from having a completely open and empty schedule to once again being stretched entirely too thin. I feel like I am doing a half-assed job at everything, namely: my job, keeping up the house, and being a decent mom. I still have a dufflebag at the foot of my bed that has not been unpacked from the shore, I've seen Isaac awake this week for probably a grand total of 4 hours, and I realized tonight I never registered him for soccer and now all the areas leagues are closed. I seriously cried when I realized that. I'll get my life together in a little bit, but the beginning of the school year always makes me feel like I am going to die.

Exhaustion, extreme heat, loneliness and guilt are getting the better of me. I'll be back in, like, a week or two.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

"Driving sideways..."

It's an Aimee Mann kind of night. I adore those albums. I listened to them over and over in college. She is very much like Counting Crows in that when you pull out lyrics they don't seem as meaningful. So much of it is in the music and the delivery. I'm trying to mellow out.
I am feeling a lot of anxiety about the summer, the school end of this school year, the start of the next, money worries, summer employment, my parents traveling, etc. As much as I am looking forward to summer, there are still quite a few question marks about it, and I just don't do well with uncertainty and transitions. I called my mom in tears because I am already panicked over who will be there for Isaac's first day of school (even though she has already assured me over and over she will come out since I will have to work). The beginning weeks of the school year are always intense. New students to get to know, back to school openhouse, and this year it will be Jenny's wedding the Friday before school starts plus getting Isaac ready for kindergarten. It seriously makes me hyperventilate.
But that is months away. And I need to be living in the moment.
And staying calm.
And breathing.
And sleeping. ..

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