Do What You Have to Do

A song that makes you cry (or almost cry). Do What You Have to Do - Sarah McLachlan If I had to choose one song that encapsulates the experience of my pregnancy this would be it. For my entire pregnancy my plan was to adopt Isaac. Although that was my plan and my choice, it is a horrible conflict of doing what you feel is the best thing for your baby and not fully being able to understand how you will be able to go through with that. I don't think I will ever be able to hear this song and not be instantly transported to that time in my life.

It is interesting to note that Sarah McLachlan is adopted and has spoken about her experience and her support of open adoptions. So although I don't know if she has ever said for certain, I do think it is definitely possible that this song could actually be from the perspective of a birthmother.

What ravages of spirit Conjured this temptuous rage Created you a monster Broken by the rules of love And fate has led you through it You do what you have to do And fate has led you through it You do what you have to do ... And I have the sense to recognize that I don’t know how to let you go Every moment marked With apparitions of your soul I’m ever swiftly moving Trying to escape this desire The yearning to be near you I do what I have to do The yearning to be near you I do what I have to do But I have the sense to recognize That I don’t know how To let you go I don’t know how To let you go A glowing ember Burning hot Burning slow Deep within I’m shaken by the violence Of existing for only you I know I can’t be with you I do what I have to do I know I can’t be with you I do what I have to do And I have sense to recognize but I don’t know how to let you go I don’t know how to let you go I don’t know how to let you go