work
work
pick Isaac up from school and then take him to my school while I continue to work
meeting with upset parent
dirty dishes piling up in the sink
driving to Lancaster
checking blogs
looking up at the clock at work and seeing it is 6:30 at night and I haven't eaten anything since 12:30
e-mailing work people until midnight while in bed
work
tv dinner
work
Pretty exciting life, right? Doesn't make for good blog material.
I am definitely terrifically busy at school. The insanity starts with the early intervention kids in February and keeps building steadily until June. There is no doubt my work load has increased.
But... (yes, I'm blogging about it again)....
I also feel a bit of loneliness and a void that for the past six months or so has been filled up with PDH and I think it is safe to say that I am filling that up with school. On Monday I had an after school meeting and so my mom was kind enough to pick Isaac up from school and brought him straight to her place. After my meeting was over the thought of going home to an empty house was unbearable. In the past I would have jumped on the chance to grab dessert or go bowling with PDH. Now I am filling the time up running 100 individual 3 by 5 cards through the printer until the cleaning lady is kicking me out. Dating him helped me draw boundaries on things and keep other obligations from encroaching over every aspect of my day. I need to try to regain that. I can't do another year like last where I show up at work at 6:30 am, stay till five and then bring three hours of work home with me.
On the break up front... it's done for real. I deleted his number, the whole nine yards. I'm still alternating between sad and mad. The playlist ranges from Almost Lover by a Fine Frenzy ("Goodbye my luckless romance/my back is turned on you/should have known you'd bring me heartache/almost lovers always do") to Narcissus by Alanis Morrisette.
3 comments:
I do the same thing and I wonder why that is. A meaningless, going no where relationship all the sudden seemed like a great idea after I called it quits with this guy in the Fall to just fill the void of time and not sitting home alone. I don't want to be that way.
yikes. the deleting of the number. i remember doing that with mr ex man. it was traumatic. along with deleting all the emails and the youtube videos of romantic songs he sent me. not fun, but its a proactive move.
Your life sounds so busy. It's amazing how you are able to keep it together so well. I really admire that you are able to do that. I agree with Kourtney, you definitely deserve to be with someone who will make your life fuller and happier, rather than just someone who can fill that void.
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