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"Driving sideways..."

It's an Aimee Mann kind of night. I adore those albums. I listened to them over and over in college. She is very much like Counting Crows in that when you pull out lyrics they don't seem as meaningful. So much of it is in the music and the delivery. I'm trying to mellow out.

I am feeling a lot of anxiety about the summer, the school end of this school year, the start of the next, money worries, summer employment, my parents traveling, etc. As much as I am looking forward to summer, there are still quite a few question marks about it, and I just don't do well with uncertainty and transitions. I called my mom in tears because I am already panicked over who will be there for Isaac's first day of school (even though she has already assured me over and over she will come out since I will have to work). The beginning weeks of the school year are always intense. New students to get to know, back to school openhouse, and this year it will be Jenny's wedding the Friday before school starts plus getting Isaac ready for kindergarten. It seriously makes me hyperventilate.

But that is months away. And I need to be living in the moment.

And staying calm.

And breathing.

And sleeping. ..

Not bitter (seriously!!)

Okay, how perfect is that picture? So, apparently some people (cough-cough-younger-brother-Joe-cough-cough) feel that I should feel upset that my sister is younger than me but is getting married first. I think he is hoping for something ridiculous that would parallel the story-line to Taming of the Shrew. I hate to burst anyone's bubble, but I don't feel bitter at all. First of all, she is not that much younger than me. There are about four years between us. Statistically speaking, it's inevitable. Jenny (oh, and she is only going by Jennifer these days, but I CAN NOT call her that) has always dated a lot. I never have. Jenny lives in a Mormon mecca of dating, courtship and marriage with plenty of opportunity to date. I live in a much cooler east coast town where local society doesn't put intense pressure on me to define myself worth by my marital status. (whoa, I did almost veer into bitter rant territory... focus...) So since she is more inclined to date and has a mind boggling amount of people available for dating, it doesn't surprise me that she is getting married first. If anything, a part of me feels relieved. Growing up I was always referred to as "the test child". This time, she can be the "Wedding Test Child". But more importantly, I adore her and I really like Drew and I am terrifically excited and happy for them and would never want to turn any part of her wedding into something that I could complain about. So there haters.

A few Friday randoms: * Poor Isaac plays with his shadow and calls it "my brudder". It reminds me of Anne of Green Gables when she talks about the little girl in the glass bookshelf being her only friend. When he was younger, he used to insist that my younger brother Joe was his brother. It was a sad day when he put it all together ("Mom, I need a real brudder, not just Joe". * Undomesticity has reached an all time high. I have run out of room to store the dirty laundry, so I am finally doing it. I keep telling myself to do a little at a time so it doesn't build up, but I never listen. Then I can barely open my closet door and poor Isaac is wearing knee high soccer socks to school... This is too funny -----> Enjoy your weekend all. I know I will... =)

This actually melts my dog hating heart

I'll have to try to remember to watch a week from today.

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. I did NOT send Isaac to school in shorts and a t-shirt today. It's really as warm as I thought it would be. Now I'm that mom being judged by all the teachers... I was NOT asked by the school librarian today (an older guy who is right on the borderline of hilarious and pervy) if I had just woken up due to the extreme unruliness of my hair. Yeah, I need a haircut. I get it. I do NOT regularly get e-mails from AARP. I'm only 28. What the heck?!?! I did NOT forget all about an IEP meeting tomorrow. I did NOT have to stay at work till nearly 7:00 to finish everything I need to do to get ready. I did NOT finish off most of the leftover cheesecake in the faculty fridge after school and then stop by McDonald's for dinner. I am NOT laying in bed watching Intervention instead of working out as the cheesecake and fries settle themselves on my hips and thighs.

Yay!!

After possibly the longest courtship in the history of two BYU students (I kid! I kid!) Drew and Jenny finally made it official and are engaged!

She called tonight and let me blather on forever about what I had for dinner and Isaac's soccer before she told me.

I'm so thrilled and happy for them. Apparently vacationing with our family for a week last summer was not enough to deter Drew from deciding to join it. They are thinking August for the wedding which gives me one more exciting thing to look forward to this summer.

(She asked me not to post about it on facebook, but I figure it is okay to post about it here.)

I'm so excited!