Monday, May 31, 2010

It's no secret...

...that I love Alanis Morrisette.
"Flinch" What's it been over a decade? It still smarts like it was four minutes ago We only influenced each other totally We only bruised each other even more so What are you my blood? You touch me like you are my blood What are you my dad? You affect me like you are my dad How long can a girl be shackled to you How long before my dignity is reclaimed How long can a girl stay haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Where've you been? I heard you moved to my city My brother saw you somewhere downtown I'd be paralyzed if I ran into you My tongue would seize up if we were to meet again What are you my god? You touch me like you are my god What are you my twin? You affect me like you are my twin How long can a girl be tortured by you? How long before my dignity is reclaimed And how long can a girl be haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name So here I am one room away from where I know you're standing A well-intentioned man told me you just walked in This man knows not of how this information has affected me But he knows the colour of the car I just drove away in What are you my kin? You touch me like you are my kin What are you my air? You affect me like you are my air
(That's for you WJM)

Saturday, May 29, 2010

so what?

How you can tell I am *not* a hardcore biker on the River Trail:

I do not have these: or these: And I DEFINITELY don't have these: And I was passed 3 times by people in their 70s riding these: and I think this:

works as well as that:

And my cars keys/cellphone and ipod? They are stored RIGHT in the sports bra. (I'll spare you a picture of that one).

I may not be the spiffiest or the fastest, but I'll still be out pedaling.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

stream...

  • Today was in the upper 90s.
  • I love it.
  • Even though school is not air conditioned.
  • It feels like summer.
  • And makes me ready for the smell of sunscreen and car rides to the Jersey Shore.
  • I got my dress for my sister's wedding today.
  • Well, ordered it anyways.
  • Here it is.
  • It has pockets which I love!
  • I'm getting a little bolero jackety thing too to go over it.
  • Don't have a heart attack conservative Mormon readers.
  • My shoulders will be hidden from the world.
  • And I forcefully told the sales woman I would NOT be dying my shoes to match.
  • Ick.
  • Ick. Ick. Ick.
  • The shoes are TBA but rest assured, they will be FABULOUS.
  • I cancelled E-harmony again.
  • Budget concerns.
  • And I'm just sick of it.
  • Ready for a break.
  • Maybe now that I am on my less hectic summer schedule I will have time for more activities with the singles ward.
  • Summer is the best time to go as the ratio swells to about three guys to every girl.
  • Although, most of the guys are "bug boys" or "security boys" in town for a month or two doing summer sales.
  • And they are all, like, 12.
  • I mean, 21.
  • (Same difference.)
  • They still haven't told me if I will be working ESY (Extended School Year) this summer.
  • But hopefully I will. *fingers crossed*
  • Easy money, and it's only Monday through Thursday.
  • Every Friday off = every Friday at the beach.
  • There are only 14 days left of school, so I hope they let me know soon.
  • Wait, allow me to let that lovely bit of info stand on it's own.
  • THERE ARE ONLY 14 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT.
  • And three of them are half days!
  • Still don't know my assignment yet for next year either.
  • Budget cuts have really slowed everything down.
  • I do know they are no longer planning to cut special ed jobs though.
  • Which is a giant "whew!".
  • Random facebook pet peeve: People who "like" their own status.
  • It just seems redundant.
  • Of course you like what you wrote.

I keep nodding off, so that's all folks.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I am a (small) step closer to crossing off another resolution. My sister got me the above book for Mother's Day and I finished it in several sittings while in Florida. I've heard Mary Ellen Edmunds speak a few times now and I have read many of her talks. She is so fabulous and funny. Her book was uplifting and an easy read. Each chapter was a different topic based on excerpts from talks she has given. Thank you Jenny for such a great read!
Mckmama- Not Me Monday Isaac did NOT ask not once but twice who was coming over in response to me vacumming and tidying up. I tried to explain that no one was coming over, I just want the house to be clean, but I'm not sure he is entirely convinced. And while on said cleaning spree I did NOT clean the crumbs and debris off the kitchen counters using the vacuum cleaner. That would be lazy and sort of gross.
I did NOT spend half of my grocery budget on the Toy Story 2 DVD for Isaac. That would be ridiculous and excessive and not at all in keeping with my new less-is-more lifestyle.
I did NOT let Isaac believe that the tickets I got him to the Reading Phillies (minor league team) were tickets to the actual Phillies. He did NOT see the real Phillies on tv the next day and ask me a million questions about why their uniforms were different. I did NOT go to the outlets with my gf Saturday and convince her to give me free flip flops on the buy one get one free shoe deal at Ann Taylor Loft. What things have you NOT done lately?

It's Fun to Be Hated...

The Pennsylvania pension mess: Teachers will help fix it, but they must be fairly compensated Wednesday, May 19, 2010 By James P. Testerman Recent media reports have given considerable coverage to the expected 2012-2013 increase in school district pension costs and what it could mean for taxpayers. That's fine, but as this public discussion proceeds, we must not overlook how pension policies affect our schools, students and teachers. To find real solutions, we must assess the situation from a broader perspective. The 2001 passage of the controversial No Child Left Behind law redefined expectations. Without getting into the pros and cons of the legislation, it did raise standards for student achievement. So how have we done? The Center for Education Policy has applauded Pennsylvania for recording gains in all academic categories from 2002 through 2008. Pennsylvania eight-graders showed larger gains than their counterparts in 41 other states on the 2009 National Assessment of Educational Progress reading test, and their scores ranked among the highest in the nation. More Pennsylvania students than ever are choosing higher education. If Pennsylvania students were a football team, we'd be celebrating their top rankings. Unfortunately, this good news is rarely reported. While student scores have steadily improved, salaries for school employees have struggled to keep pace with inflation. By at least one measure, educators' average salary has actually fallen. Salary is the biggest component of teacher compensation, and a study by the Economic Policy Institute found Pennsylvania teachers earn 18 percent less on average than other college graduates. So why do school employees keep doing their best without complaining? Teaching is a calling. College graduates choose our profession to help future generations, not because they expect to get rich. School employees anticipate that they will earn a middle-class salary, with good benefits and the promise of a secure retirement. Benefit packages help to keep top-quality educators in the classroom. Even as their salaries have stagnated or declined, Pennsylvania public school employees have been the one group that has continued to contribute money to the pension fund on schedule, consistently paying their share with every paycheck. The state government and school districts have delayed their payments. Over the past decade, school employees have contributed almost twice as much as school districts and the commonwealth combined ($7.35 billion compared to $3.76 billion). And as the districts and the state took their "pension holiday," two historic stock-market downturns depleted the pension fund and contributed to the looming increase in costs required for them to meet their obligations. Think of it this way: You walk into a furniture store and see an offer for "no money down and no interest" for a number of years. You get good use out of your kitchen table for years, but eventually the bill comes due. Same goes for pension costs. Eventually the bill comes due, and the costs will be high. This history matters because the looming increase in pension contribution rates, the so-called pension spike, is based on costs already incurred for which the bill is now coming due, not for benefits to be earned in the future. Approximately 75 percent of the 2012-2013 employer obligation is for pensions already owed to school employees. And the price will be high because the district and the commonwealth put off their installments. Proposals to reduce the level of future benefits, or to switch to alternative, 401(k)-type systems, cannot significantly address the increase in employer contribution rates. They simply would further erode the modest retirement security of working Pennsylvanians whose salaries already have been slipping -- and make it harder for Pennsylvania to keep and attract the high-quality teachers needed to produce further improvements in student achievement. It's appropriate to re-examine pension programs to ensure their long-term health. But the solution should not be a race to the bottom. Policy makers should try to restore the ability of all middle-class workers to achieve a modest, secure retirement. The Pennsylvania State Education Association is committed to working with elected officials to find solutions that recognize these challenging economic times, are fair to taxpayers and public school employees, make the most efficient use of taxpayer dollars and promote high-quality education for Pennsylvania schoolchildren. For this important discussion to begin in earnest, we must first understand the history of the problem, respect those who have worked to improve student achievement and agree to make decisions today that won't hurt Pennsylvania workers in the future. James P. Testerman is a science teacher in the Central York School District and president of the Pennsylvania State Education Association (www.psea.org).

I die...

Look what showed up in my work e-mail: Field Study for Educators Peru: The Amazon to the Andes August 9th - 19th, 2010 Designed for teachers, students, and the adventurous, this once in a lifetime experience will immerse you in a study of Peru’s lowland tropical rainforest and its Andean sub-tropical cloud forest. The focus will be on transforming our relationship with the natural world and translating the adventure into meaningful learning experiences for K-12 students. Pre-Departure Workshop: August 7th-8th on the West Chester University Campus Cost: $2,775 + Airfare to Lima (Optional Machu Picchu Extension: Aug 18-21: $600) For credit (optional): Register for EDO420-41/EDO520-41 Summer Session III WCU Outdoor and Place-Based Education (3 credits) Additional required dates for credit: August 2nd-7th (9:00am-5:00pm) in West Chester, PA *Deadline for registration and payment of $500 deposit: May 31st, 2010 More information: Mary Ann Robinson mrobinson@wcupa.edu Dr. Paul Morgan, 610-436-6945 pmorgan@wcupa.edu Itinerary and Registration Forms: Visit http://www.wcupa.edu/aceer/workshops.asp or call 610-738-0477 Sponsors: The Amazon Center for Environmental Education and Research (ACEER) West Chester University of Pennsylvania (WCU)

I've always wanted to go to Machu Picchu. I love how they think you can afford a trip like that on a few weeks notice. We are TEACHERS after all. Maybe next year...

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

life soundtrack

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I'm back

I haven't posted lately because I've been busy doing this:

and this:

and a little bit of this:

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It could not have been more lovely, relaxing and fun.
  • The weather was fabulous.
  • We had the perfect mix of going out (Disney and Epcot) and staying at the resort lounging around the many pools under the palm trees. Everything was at our own pace. No over-scheduling.
  • I purposely didn't bring my laptop. The school e-mail went untouched and the cell was used only for communicating with family while in the parks.
  • My parents (of course) were the perfect hosts and it was so good to spend time with my sister.
  • Isaac is the most fabulous traveling companion under the age of six there ever was.
But....

Now I'm home and reality has hit me like a ton of bricks.
There are lots of thoughts churning through my head so hopefully I will be posting more soon.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

arbitrary thoughts

  1. Packing for vacation is so much fun.
  2. Especially when it is just for a few days in a hotel.
  3. Instead of a whole week in a beachhouse where I must transport a ton more stuff.
  4. In contrast, unpacking from vacation is like, the worst thing ever.
  5. I've got Lady Gaga blasting and everything is all organized.
  6. The luggage leaves with mom and dad for FL tomorrow.
  7. They are driving.
  8. We will meet them there (via airplane) on Friday.
  9. I love how I already packed my blow dryer and most of my make-up.
  10. Because I know I won't use any of it before Friday.
  11. Now I just have the dreaded short list of things I need to use in the meantime.
  12. That also need to be packed to come with.
  13. And yes, this vacation falls into the category of "Things Lisa Should Have Said No To In Order To Stick to Her New Frugal Lifestyle."
  14. But it's too late now.
  15. And darn it, I wanna go to Disney World!
  16. I hope the weather in FL is better than the weather here.
  17. It has been rather chilly and gray lately.
  18. Which I felt bad. It has been 70s/80s/90s for the past few weeks.
  19. And so I advised my sister to pack more summer clothes.
  20. Now of course she is here and it's freezing.
  21. I'm craving brownies.
  22. I will settle for sucking on a few chocolate chips.
  23. I've been trying to come up with a reponse post to this and the posts/comments referenced within it.
  24. I think I could start write about twenty typed pages about feelings of "not belonging" at church.
  25. So who knows. If I could get my thoughts together in a coherant way there could be a post about it soon.
  26. Apparently Isaac has been begging to learn piano.
  27. My folks pulled out all the old basic piano books from the basement for him.
  28. I have to admit, that one overwhelms me.
  29. Piano lessons were so painful and not fun for me that I almost don't want to go there with him.
  30. We'll see though.
  31. In online dating anecdotes: my friend Jenni was checking her e-mail at lunch today on her iphone.
  32. She announced that she had recieved an e-mail from a guy saying "Damn, you have some hot friends".
  33. Needless to say, she hit ignore.
  34. This guy at church the other day was straight up clipping his daughters toenails in the middle of the service.
  35. And as if that weren't bad enough he was using the little file part to scrap junk out from underneath them.
  36. I'm not exaggerating, I almost threw up.
  37. Am I the only person left in the universe that has to do T9 texting?

That's all I got tonight...

Monday, May 10, 2010

What I've Been Listening to Lately

These are the ones I keep skipping ahead to on my ipod.
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What are you listening to these days? I need some fresh songs...

This is what I need...

to make it through work today. And it's the end of the year, so tissues are a hot commodity at school.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

*bang, bang*

If listening to "The Warrior" by Scandal on repeat play for roughly an hour is wrong, I don't want to be right.... Whatever helps you keep your heartrate up, right? Even if it means embarassing yourself because you don't see your neighbor in his front yard with his dog at the moment you decide to belt out "Viiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiictory is mine!"

...yeah

So I have a question for all you excerciser types out there.
What do you do to prevent this?
I'm hoping there is another answer besides "Wear thick dorky socks".
Will my heels eventually develp calluses?
Or will the insides of my shoes just forever be a bloody mess?

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

"Besties with testes..."

Pretty accurate, no?

50 random thoughts

  1. I made enchildas and spicy rice for dinner.
  2. It's rare that I cook on a school night.
  3. However, today I took a sick day to get my teeth cleaned.
  4. And to take Isaac to kindergarten orientation.
  5. My mom had dressed him adorably in a light blue polo shirt and his red crocs.
  6. He was so nervous.
  7. He did seperate from me and go with his class.
  8. I had to sit through a very boring presentation on kindergarten.
  9. It was a mix of explaining kindergarten activities (yeah very familiar with those), and convincing us full day kindergarten is better than half day (very controversial in the district, but A-ok with me)
  10. Isaac left very excited to start kindergarten.
  11. He said his favorite part was doing "hallway hugs" and walking quietly to the classroom.
  12. Not sure why this was more fun than riding the bus, hearing a story and playing and coloring in the kindergarten room, but whatever.
  13. Of course, I forgot the camera.
  14. But I WILL remember to send it with my mom for the first real day.
  15. Whatdaya think of the new blog layout?
  16. The header is a little craptastic but it will do.
  17. I finished Anne of Green Gables today.
  18. I started Anne of Avonlea immediately after.
  19. They are such wonderful books.
  20. Next I am going to Netflix the old PBS specials of them.
  21. Or rather, ask my mom to Netflix them for me.
  22. Obviously something like Nextflix would not be in the new and improved budget.
  23. Isaac hurt himself in the bathtub tonight doing push-ups.
  24. When questioned why, he answered "Because they make you healthy and strong".
  25. True.
  26. But who's kid is this anyways?
  27. Clearly not mine
  28. Or his dad's for that matter.
  29. (just saying)
  30. I feel like I have a terrible headcold.
  31. But my eyes are itchy so it must be allergies.
  32. Or I could possible have pink eye AND a head cold.
  33. In which case, I definitely should NOT return to work tomorrow.
  34. It was so lovely to sleep in today.
  35. I'm giving Margie Clark an Undomestic Goddess shoutout.
  36. She's a stealth reader apparently.
  37. I really like my new dentist.
  38. He and his wife have a practice together which I think is so cute.
  39. I really can't wait for summer vacation.
  40. I'm mentally SPENT.
  41. I have some students this year who are real pickles and I think we would all enjoy a break from each other.
  42. I also have some adults I could use six weeks break from.
  43. Things can get tense in a non-air conditioned elementary school.
  44. Especially when you add 26 five years olds to the mix.
  45. This will be the first year though that I will be giving up students to other teachers in the building. Last year I kept them all and the ones I didn't keep all ended up leaving the school for various reasons.
  46. It will be a little sad to see some of my guys as SECOND graders next year.
  47. But whatever, life goes on.
  48. I sucked up one of Isaac's toy cars in the vacuum.
  49. I cannot find it in the hose or anywhere in the vacuum though.
  50. The vacuum is still working at about 50% capacity though, so who knows.

Monday, May 3, 2010

"If you can't love yourself, how in the HELL you gonna love somebody else?" - Rupaul
Truer words were never spoken.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

ick

(not actually me) =P
So I am an avid watcher of Intervention. When an addict's family is trying to help their loved one get into treatment, the counselor generally tells them that the addict must hit rock bottom. He then works with the family to set firm boundaries that can help speed along the process of the addict hitting a "bottom".
Well, I have been really, really struggling with my finances and budgeting and this weekend I sort of hit a bottom.
Not rock bottom, I'm not filing bankruptcy or losing my home or anything.
But I did hit sort of a bottom.
I ran home to my parents house in Lancaster to have a good cry with my folks and to sort through a huge stack of bills and try to get things in order. It was much easier to have someone help me deal with each sheet of paper and make a budget. Aside from the nuts of bolts of working in excel and crunching numbers we also had a pretty good talk about my life and the patterns it seems to follow.
Realities:
  • A tactic I use often in my life is avoidance. I will physically avoid my problems (for example, not going to the mailbox, or not opening my bills) or just avoid thinking about them or dealing with them.
  • Refusing to deal with my problems doesn't help me actually avoid the stress. It still manifests itself physically in the form of crippling headaches, upset stomachs and skin rashes. So best to just deal with things and ask for help.
  • I am still trying to live the lifestyle that I lived when I lived at home with my parents/the lifestyle that my childless mortgage-less friends live. This cannot continue. I need to get into frugal mom mode ASAP.
  • Along the same lines, I must learn to say no to other people, to Isaac and to myself. I do not have to take Isaac to every birthday party he is invited to. I do not have to buy candy/flowers/sandwich coupons to support my coworkers kid's fundraisers every time they ask. I do not have to attend every jewelry, candle, Tastefully Simple or retirement party for my coworkers. I do not have to attend every school function. I can't go out to eat with my girlfriends whenever they ask. When I'm hungry I need to go home and eat leftovers instead of going to Wawa. I can no longer kill an hour wandering around Target and tossing whatever catches my eye into the cart. I can't buy tickets for every concert or play that I would like. I simply cannot afford it. This one is really hard for me. I am not one of those mom's that revels in clipping coupons and going a year without a haircut. But it's time to get serious about cutting back.
  • I'm not going to elaborate much on this one but you know that old expression "For every finger you point and someone else, there are three more pointing right back at you?" I think there is truth to qualities that I despise in others are the ones I might recognize within myself. It tough to deal with.
Then I had a lovely sleep in the pink spare room and went to church with them in the morning. I picked Isaac up from his dad's and brought him back there and we stayed for dinner and played outside. It was a lovely little retreat. Coming home this evening I feel better able to face things and I have some action items on my to do list that can help me move forward rather than just be stuck in a mire of anxiety and fear. So to recap, I have the best family in the world, I'm facing and dealing with my problems, and I can't go to the movies for the next three years at least. How was your weekend?

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