Whining makes my ears bleed

I can't take any more of it. Isaac has an immense vocabulary. This is why I can't understand why the last few weeks he has been resorting to straight up cat scratching on a chalkboard whining. It is generally accompanied by throwing himself on the ground and kicking his feet and banging his head. It's obnoxious and it's intolerable and I have very little patience for it. Anytime he doesn't get his way he breaks out into it. I don't even understand why he does it, since 80% of the time we have no idea what has him so upset and we cannot understand him at all to try to help him. It just feels like he is really regressing which of course is troubling. He binky which we had almost faded out (yes he is 3.5 and still uses a binky-- don't judge-- we never meant for it to happen) is almost always in his mouth and his toilet training is regressing also. I wish I knew what to do. I wish I was more patient with him. So I have been hitting up all of the kiddy movies this summer now that Isaac has discovered he loves the movies. We have seen Kung Fu Panda (two thumbs up!), Space Chimps (one opposable thumb up) and Wall E (we only saw the first half because Isaac gorged himself on popcorn and had to leave before it was over. I haven't seen many grown up movies lately though. So yesterday I ran up to the outlets because I heard that the kids stores were having huge markdowns on summer stuff and boy were they ever. I always buy a year ahead for Isaac off the clearance rack. I started off at The Children's Place. I got shirts for less than 2 bucks and jeans for 2.99, cargo shorts and mesh shorts. Then I moved on to Carter's where I got pajamas sets for 6 bucks each. Then I moved onto OshKosh where the sales weren't as good. I had been buying 5t but when I got to Osh Kosh I made a sad discovery. They don't carrying 5t! 5 is 5/6 in the BOYS department. I left the store promptly. I am not ready to leave the toddler department behind yet. I stopped into Gymboree. I usually avoid that store because their clothes are horribly over priced and not that cute (at least the boys side). I don't really get all the hype. I know moms who are crazy about that store and buy entire lines for their kids. I did pick up a 2.99 tank top and 4.99 cargo shorts. I rounded out my shopping trip at Gap Kids. It was a productive hour at the outlets. I also got a new duvet cover for my bed from Target for only 8 bucks. My comforter becomes a drop cloth for Isaac's breakfast each morning and is starting to look a little shabby. Gotta stretch those dollars. What else? Well, there is no news on the job front, of course. I'm trying to keep my head up but it is getting harder and harder to keep hope. I have only two weeks left at my current job (extended school year) and then nothing. I really don't want to sub again for another year. It's so frustrating. At this point I really am considering, like, Chester schools. My student loans are now due (and the total I have amassed in loans is nothing short of horrifying) and I cannot make the payments on a sub's salary. Not to mention, it has been a year now since I have had health insurance. One of these days I would actually like to go to the doctor if I get sick, or possibly even get prescription medicine. It should not be this hard for a special ed teacher to get a contract position. And, if one more person tells me I should be an instructional assistant I am going to scream. I am a certified teacher with a master's degree. I am not going to take a job that requires only a high school diploma. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Anyways, onto happier topics, my sister comes home Tuesday and I CAN NOT wait. August is going to be a fun month-- Counting Crows, a week at the shore.