show me what I'm looking for...

(actual music video isn't embeddable)

Boring.

So I have nothing to post. I could keep linking up snarky pictures about dating/breaking up, etc............

I could keep linking up to youtube videos of my life soundtrack (which is still heavy on the Alanis)..............

But I refuse to keep blogging (thinking/texting/obsessing/talking) about PDH.

And there isn't too much new going on with my life.

I went tubing with some co-workers last night: I have never gone snow tubing before, and it was a lot of fun.

Isaac and I went skating last Friday which was also fun.

Now that we are finally starting to see glimmers of spring around here, we have to hurry up and finish up the winter activities, I guess.

so true...

"on a break"

Did any relationship ever go "on a break" before these two??

One of these days I will probably get in real trouble for oversharing on the internet...

But until then, I'll keep writing:

PDH and I had a talk earlier in the week and it became clear that I felt we were "broken up" while he feels that we are "on a break".

????

Confused? Yeah me too .

I don't really understand the difference but basically he wants "time and space" but he can't define time and space. Are we talking weeks? Months? He doesn't know.

Okay.

And what about space? Evidently talking (even daily) is okay, and hanging out (on his time table of course) is still okay. But he doesn't know how often that will be.

Okay....

So basically he wants things to be the same as they have been (at the end) except I can't complain that I am unhappy with things because "we're on a break" instead of "in a relationship". I can sit around and hope for a good night phone call, but I'm no longer entitled to expect one.

Oh and here's the real kicker. Being on a break evidently also means not dating other people.

So, yeah .........

...... that doesn't really work for me.

I mean, it's not like I have a line of eligible bachelor's waiting outside my door (I'm envisioning the blowing away nanny scene from Mary Poppins and then PDH descending from the sky holding small black umbrella...). Far from it.

But on the other hand, I'm not going to just twiddle my thumbs indefinitely stuck in some ambiguous relationship limbo while PDH tries to decide if he wants to be together or not. If it's not going to work out let's not keep dangling the hope of reconciliation. Let's cut our losses and start the whole process of "moving on".

So pretty much I am NOT a fan of "being on a break".

What the heck is the point? When I was aloof and unsure in the summer, he couldn't get enough of me. Now that I've committed and want to be with him in a REAL relationship, all of a sudden he needs time and space.

So we continue to be at at impasse.

I do continue to care about him. I think the things that strained our relationship the past month or so are things that could be improved with better communication on both of our parts.

BUT I continue to be unwilling to compromise on certain things (like actually hanging out together on more than a monthly basis). I'm not going to change the core of who I am and what I need from a partner.

I am willing to give him time and space if that's what he feels that he needs to evaluate from a distance.

But... I won't guarantee I will just be here sitting and waiting if/when he is ready for me.

So there you go.

Rocking out to the Black Eye Peas... Apple's got nothing on us...

Here's a few more for fun...

He totally struck this pouty pose with no prompting from me and even said that his "tie" made him feel "stylish"... (Someone's been watching too many Project Runway reruns with mommy on Saturday afternoons...) After this picture was taken he began to slather lotion on his face to make himself more "fabulous". =)

And of course the fur babies...

why??

Would you use a picture of yourself wearing socks with flip-flops as your default picture on a dating website? Gross..

Life soundtrack 2/25