Wow-- long time no blog

It's been a long time since I blogged. I don't even know where to start. Work is EXHAUSTING. There is more work to be done than is humanly possible and I literally spend nearly every waking hour doing stuff for school. I hope it gets better, because if I have to do this for a whole year I will go absolutely insane. I have no balance in my life. I am so stressed about it all the time. If I wake up in the middle of the night I can't go back to sleep because my mind starts racing about stuff for school. I wake up nauseous from stress every morning and I can't usually bring myself to eat anything until snack time with the kids. By Saturday night I am already sick in anticipation of Monday. It's hard. The other day I saw a mailman delivering mail and I found myself longing to work for the postal service. How sad is that? I miss Isaac. He is such a sweet little boy and my time with him now is so fleeting. It makes me feel horrible. If I can't make him more of a priority then what is the point of everything I'm doing? Fortuneatly he is mommy's angel and the kid cracks me up on a regular basis. My mom bought him a goldfish which he has named Dorothy and he is crazy about it. He came in my room sometime between six and seven yesterday with a little green net asking if he could clean the fish bowl. He is also starting to understand our family dynamics a little more. He understands now that Grandpa is my dad (he used to insist that grandpa was his dad). Now when Grandpa walks in the door Isaac will say "Mommy, you're dad is home!" and then laugh hysterically like it's a joke. He still doesn't have a clue about my mom. He has told me more than once that my mom is his OTHER mommy. While this is essentially true, I would rather him not going around telling people he has two mommies. People might get the wrong idea. I had a good talk with my dad last night (while cutting out seven feet of lamination). We have decided unless we find a cheap little house less than 5 miles from my parents I am going to keep living here until Isaac is ready to go to school. It just makes more sense. Although a part of me is disappointed, a part of me is relieved. They have plenty of room for me and it would add a whole new dimension of stress to my life to be on my own right now with Isaac. I have come to the conclusion that I would like to buy some cowboy boots. I was putting away some of my summer clothes and pulling out some of the fall/winter stuff and I decided that my wardrobe is seriously lacking some cowboy boots. Changing our closets over from season to season is one of my favorite things to do. I love culling out the old stuff and packing up all the shoes and pulling out all the new stuff. Fall is definitely in the air now, and I am looking forward to high boots and sweaters. I have a celebrity crush on the rapper T.I. How terrible is that? Well I supposed I should get ready for church...

quick update

My new job is exhausting but is going better and better. I am getting acclimated and into a routine but it has been completely and utterly EXHAUSTING. I have been getting there an hour or so early and staying an hour or so late and then thre hours of work before bed. I hope it gets better!! Have any of you been watching Tabitha's Salon Takeover on Bravo? It's my new guilty pleasure. I love it. Isaac is spending the night at his dad's tomorrow which is scarey and exciting. It would be nice to have the option to send Isaac there if I ever wanted to go away for a weekend or something. Mean while, I will be going skating and then sleeping as late as I want to for the first time in, about two years. I think the last time I could sleep as late as I want, was when I went to visit my aunt in California and left Isaac home with my mom. More soon.