Sunday, November 2, 2008

Update

Our pumpkins. The one is supposed to be a skull and cross bones but it didn't turn out so well.
* So we were at Target the other day and Isaac sees the 5.50 movie rack. I agreed to let him pick one out. They had Carebears, Thomas, etc but of course he wants the Power Rangers. We had a little stand-off (a long time ago I let him have a Power Rangers movie and was ABSOLUTELY appaulled at how violent it was. It went right in the trash but he has never forgotten about it). We argue about it a bit and then he goes "That's fine. I will get it when I am here with my grandma." So self confident! I couldn't wait to tell my mom about that one.
* He also had another zinger when we were talking about my birthday. He asked me how old I would be and when I told him 27 he said "That's old." I agreed and he goes "Well you will be old on your birthday, but grandma is old every day". I love it.
* Laundry has got to be the most depressing chore ever. I can't even bring myself to write it on my to do list because you can never cross it off. It's never, ever, ever done. I think I have done five loads this weekend and I still have towels and sheets and ironing. When I worked for Krista Rogers (mother of five and pregnant with a sixth when I was working there) in high school she always stressed that the number one thing she wanted me to focus on was the laundry. I certainly understand why!
* Things with work have been going better. I am settling into more of a routine which is good and I am not spending 4-5 hours after work doing things which is a relief. I am still trying to figure out a way to include more excercise in my daily routine. I pay for a family membership to the Y for me and Isaac but he is the only one that uses it regularly. My dad and I went biking this weekend and I couldn't believe how much I was huffing and puffing. I've got to get more on the ball.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

interesting

LDS Official Calls for More Political Diversity Dan Harrie, Salt Lake Tribune, May 3, 199810/27/2008 05:51 PM MDT On May 3, 1998, the Salt Lake Tribune reported the following interview with Elder Marlin K. Jensen of the First Quorum of the Seventy of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Elder Jensen, at the time a member of the Church's Public Affairs Committee, was "designated by church officials to respond to The Salt Lake Tribune's request for an interview on the topic of partisan imbalance in Utah and among LDS members." The LDS Church, through a high-ranking leader, is making its strongest public statement to date about the need for political diversity among members, while expressing concerns the Republican Party is becoming the "church party." "There is sort of a division along Mormon/non-Mormon, Republican/Democratic lines," says Elder Marlin Jensen, a member of the First Quorum of the Seventy. "We regret that more than anything -- that there would become a church party and a non-church party. That would be the last thing that we would want to have happen." Jensen said major national political parties may take stands that do not coincide with teachings of the 10 million-member Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, but that should not put them out of bounds for members. A former attorney and lifelong Democrat, Jensen was careful in his comments not to suggest an official LDS preference for any political party but to maintain the church's traditional stand of partisan neutrality. The First Quorum of the Seventy is the third tier in LDS Church leadership after the Quorum of Twelve Apostles and the governing First Presidency. Jensen for the past three years has been a member of the church's Public Affairs Committee. He was designated by church officials to respond to The Salt Lake Tribune's request for an interview on the topic of partisan imbalance in Utah and among LDS members. The Tribune's inquiry came on the heels of two significant developments: Utah Democrats' unprecedented failure to field a candidate in a congressional race and a statement from the LDS First Presidency -- read over pulpits in January -- urging members to seek elective office. In an hourlong interview at the church's worldwide headquarters in downtown Salt Lake City arranged and overseen by LDS media-relations director Mike Otterson, Jensen discussed leaders' views about the seeming demise of two-party politics among members. Among the concerns he aired: -- The LDS Church's reputation as a one-party monolith is damaging in the long run because of the seesaw fortunes of the national political parties. -- The overwhelming Republican bent of LDS members in Utah and the Intermountain West undermines the checks-and-balances principle of democratic government. -- Any notion that it is impossible to be a Democrat and a good Mormon is wrongheaded and should be "obliterated." -- Faithful LDS members have a moral obligation to actively participate in politics and civic affairs, a duty many have neglected. "I am in shock," Utah Democratic Party Chairwoman Meghan Zanolli Holbrook said when told of Jensen's comments. "I have never heard anything like this in the years I've been here.""That's an earthshaker," said Democrat Ted Wilson, head of the University of Utah's Hinckley Institute of Politics and a longtime critic of the close connection between the Mormon Church and Republican Party. "Mormon Democrats have been praying for this," said Wilson, who is LDS. "This is more than seeking -- we have beseeched the divinity over this."Utah Republican Chairman Rob Bishop's reaction was less enthusiastic. "Any time a major player in the social fabric of the state, like the church, says something, it will have an impact.""We obviously will not change," Bishop added. "If Mormons feel comfortable we welcome them. And if non-Mormons feel comfortable, we welcome them, too." Jensen, who was called as a general authority in 1989, said high church officials lament the near-extinction of the Democratic Party in Utah and the perception -- incorrect though it is -- that the GOP enjoys official sanction of the church. All five Congress members from Utah are Mormon and Republican, four of the five statewide offices are held by GOP officials and two-thirds of the state Legislature is Republican. Nearly 90 percent of state lawmakers are LDS. Democrats last held a majority in the state House in 1975, and in the Senate in 1977. President Clinton finished third in balloting in Utah in 1992, the only state in which the Democrat finished behind Republican George Bush and independent Ross Perot. Utahns last voted for a Democrat for president in 1964, when they supported Lyndon B. Johnson. Public-opinion polls show voters identifying themselves as Republican outnumber Democrats by a ratio of about 2-1. However, a statewide survey taken in April by Valley Research, The Tribune's independent pollster, found the state equally divided when asked if the question if Republicans had too much power. Forty-six percent of the 502 respondents answered yes, 45 percent did not believe the GOP held too much sway and nine percent were unsure."One of the things that prompted this discussion in the first place was the regret that's felt about the decline of the Democratic Party [in Utah] and the notion that may prevail in some areas that you can't be a good Mormon and a good Democrat at the same time," Jensen said."There have been some awfully good men and women who have been both and are both today. So I think it would be a very healthy thing for the church -- particularly the Utah church -- if that notion could be obliterated."The idea that Mormonism and Democratic Party affiliation are incompatible traces back to the early 1970s, when LDS general authority Ezra Taft Benson, who later became church president, was quoted in an Associated Press interview as saying it would be difficult for a faithful member to be a liberal Democrat. Church officials later claimed the comment was taken out of context, although the AP stood by its account. Jensen said concerns exist on two levels about the unofficial linkage of the Republican Party and Mormon Church.One is the fear that by being closely identified with one political party, the church's national reputation and influence is subject to the roller-coaster turns and dips of that partisan organization. Also bothersome is that the uncontested dominance of the Republican Party in Utah deprives residents of the debate and competition of ideas that underlie good government."There is a feeling that even nationally as a church, it's not in our best interest to be known as a one-party church," Jensen said. "The national fortunes of the parties ebb and flow. Whereas the Republicans may clearly have the upper hand today, in another 10 years they may not." Closer to home, he pointed to the Democrats' precarious toehold in Utah -- a circumstance highlighted by the dearth of minority-party officeholders and the current one-sided election in the 3rd Congressional District.Republican Rep. Chris Cannon in 1996 defeated Bill Orton, a conservative Democrat and Mormon who had been the lone member of the minority party in Utah's delegation. This year, Cannon is seeking a second term without any challenge from a Democrat -- a first in Utah history.(In 1982, Democrat Henry Huish missed the filing deadline and had to run as an independent. Still, he had the backing of the Democratic Party.)"The Democratic Party has in the last 20 years waned to the point where it really is almost not a factor in our political life," Jensen said. "There is a feeling that that is not healthy at all -- that as a state we suffer in different ways. But certainly any time you don't have the dialogue and the give-and-take that the democratic process provides, you're going to be poorer for it in the long run." There also are more immediate, tangible costs, he said.Jensen blamed the Republican monopoly for contributing to Utah political leaders' inability or unwillingness to grapple with long-range planning issues. He pointed to the lack of state leadership on issues of open-space preservation and land-use planning.He also pointed to the massive, catch-up highway-building binge that has disrupted Salt Lake County commuters and businesses. "One might say that the transportation crisis that we're in might have been averted had there been better balance in the parties and something was thrashed out 10 years ago, perhaps during Gov. Bangerter's time, rather than being allowed to wait until we reached a crisis situation." There are probably issues like that environmentally, educationally that we'd really benefit from if there were a more robust dialogue going on. But we've lacked that and I think we've suffered somewhat because of it."Jensen's comments are bound to cause ripples among the 70 percent of Utahns who are counted as members of the LDS Church, as well as millions of faithful throughout the country, say political observers."This is the second dramatic time in the history of the state when forceful signals have been flashed from church headquarters calling on Mormons to choose up political sides more evenly," said J.D. Williams, retired University of Utah political scientist. Williams compared Jensen's public pronouncements to the church's attempts in the 1890s to divide congregations up evenly among the two major political parties. "Thus, wonder of wonders, theocracy was the mother of democracy in the territory of Utah," Williams said. "We achieved statehood five years later."Jensen also referred to the 19th-century splitting of congregations along partisan lines, when the territorial People's and Liberal parties were abandoned in favor of national party affiliations. He repeated an anecdote told by prominent LDS Democrat Oscar McConkie about his father's recollections of a church leader telling a congregation during a Sunday morning meeting to "sign up to be Republicans."At that time, Mormons favored the Democratic Party because it was less stridently anti-polygamy than were Republicans.When members of the flock returned for an afternoon session, the Republican sign-up sheet remained blank, Jensen said. "Brothers and sisters, you have misunderstood," said the church leader. "God needs Republicans.""And Oscar said his father would wink and say, `And you know, Oscar, those damned Republicans think they've had God on their side ever since,' " Jensen said."I don't know if you can make any use of that but it's a great story. And there's a little of that embedded in our culture, unfortunately," he said.Elbert Peck, editor of Sunstone magazine, said it is noteworthy that it is not LDS President Gordon B. Hinckley or one of his counselors breaking the church's silence on political imbalance."It is not as official as if it was an apostle or a member of the First Presidency saying it," Peck said. "Still, the quotes are out there and people will use them. You can bet they'll be remembered and taken as a sign." Peck, whose Salt Lake City-based independent journal publishes articles on historical and contemporary Mormonism, predicts similar comments will be made in other settings -- church firesides and the like, because messages sent by LDS general authorities are repeated."Privately, I've heard reports of these opinions, but not publicly," Peck said. "The church leaders have been careful about saying anything publicly." The tremendous growth of the Mormon Church worldwide has forced attention to its image as a good, trustworthy neighbor in the communities, states and countries where it is taking root, he said."We need to develop a tolerance -- so we don't demonize people that we have a disagreement with," Peck said. "It really was the church leaders' position on abortion and the Equal Rights Amendment [in the 1970s] that was the death of the Utah Democratic Party, because it became a litmus test," he said. Pro-choice and, more recently, gay-rights stands of the national Democratic Party have helped Republicans paint the donkey-symbol party as taboo. Jensen said it is time for LDS members to take a broader view of political affiliation."We would probably hope that they wouldn't abandon a party necessarily because it has a philosophy or two that may not square with Mormonism. Because, as I say, [parties] in their philosophies ebb and flow," Jensen said."You know, the Republicans came very close last time to bringing a pro-abortion plank into their platform. That was maybe the biggest battle of their [1996 national] convention," he said. "Which shows that if you're a pure ideologue, eventually you're going to have trouble in either party." "Everyone who is a good Latter-day Saint is going to have to pick and choose a little bit regardless of the party that they're in and that may be required a lot more in the future than it has been in the past. But I think there's room for that and the gospel leaves us lots of latitude."

Political ranting

Saturday, October 18, 2008

King of Prussia Mall

So after dropping Isaac off at his dad's I popped over to King of Prussia Mall. I wanted to pick up a few more work clothes and I planned to start off at New York and Co. They were having a pretty good sale but I came to the conclusion that although I am required to dress professionally, I really need clothes that are basically disposable. So I ended up at Old Navy where I picked up a few things. So anyways, it has been a while since I have been over to KOP and I was shocked to see how aggressive some of the vendors at the little carts are getting. Those hand lotion people have always been mildly obnoxious but today took it to a whole new level. I don't even know what this stand was selling (it wasn't too far from the LEGO store). I think curling irons? Anyways I am about 15 feet away when this guy comes charging towards me. I abruptly turned 45 degrees obviously making a point to go all the way to the far side of the mall to avoid him. His partner then comes rushing after me "Can I talk to you for a second?". NO!!!! For crying out loud I don't want to learn about the curling iron that is also a straightening iron. Also, I was surprised to see that you can have your eyebrows threaded or your teeth whitened right in the middle of the mall in front of everyone. Is nothing sacred anymore? What's next-- a bikini wax stand? I thought the water massager stand was bad enough... eesh...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Love of my life

So I have been making an effort to borrow my parent's camera to occasionally snap pictures, since I am still camera-less. Here are a few of my favorite subject....

In other news, did you see you can finally get blogger to let you know when people update their blogs? I am so excited, that is the one thing that sort of turned me off about this site. And you can even follow anonymously, so people don't see your cyber-stalker tendencies!!!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Life is looking up

Man for a couple of weeks there I didn't think I was going to make it. I was coming home from school everyday crying hysterically and then working four more hours at home. Things are definitely getting better, which is a relief. The kids are getting into a rhythm, I'm getting a better handle on things, and I am getting a little more help. Thankfully the other autistic team members are AWESOME. If I had difficult or unfriendly coworkers it would be completely unbearable but everyone is so helpful and nice. So hopefully things will just keep getting better and better. I am not waking up totally nauseous anymore as I was for the first 25 days of school or so, so that's a good thing. In other news, I am going to see Counting Crows again at the end of the month! Hurray! Unfortuneatly, it is in North Jersey on a school night, and I am not allowed to take a personal day following the concert (report cards are due). But it will be totally worth it I'm sure. I'm going with my good friend and randomly assigned freshman year roommate Nicole, so it will be a real treat to see her again as well. I saw them in August and it was a super fun show but a short set since they were opening for Maroon 5. It will be fun to see them in a more intimate venue and a longer set. I am not 100% sure but I am thinking this will be close to the tenth time I have seen them. Let's see, what else? I get paid next week and I am definitely getting a new camera then. It's so torturous for a scrapbooker to be camera-less! So expect a lot more pictures in the future. Isaac is so funny. He cracks me up on a regular basis. It is just so obvious to me that he lives in a household of adults. He is on a new kick now of choosing his own outfits and there is absolutely NO changing his mind when he is set on one. He has lots of cute clothes but he puts them together in ways that make him look absurd. It bothers me a lot more than it bothers my mom, who gets him dressed every morning. I have definitely picked him up at school and been like "What on earth are you wearing???" In other news, when I picked him up last week at his dad's he said casually "I hate it here". His dad was hurt and I was so embarassed. He doesn't understand what he is saying, but I still felt horrible. His Dad really makes an effort for Isaac. I don't believe in spanking, but I wanted to flip Isaac over and give him a good whack. It didn't help that his dad accused me of encouraging thoughts like that, which couldn't be farther from the truth.... Well I better wrap this up. I need to get my stuff together for tomorrow and I am already nodding off. Isaac woke up at 5:15 this morning. Of course by the time I managed to settle him with a movie and relax enough to drift off my alarm was ringing. He has been waking up so early lately and it is driving me crazy! Anyways, that's all for now....

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Can we talk about

How wonderful the Dark Chocolate Dreams peanut butter is? Seriously. It's amazing.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Wow-- long time no blog

It's been a long time since I blogged. I don't even know where to start. Work is EXHAUSTING. There is more work to be done than is humanly possible and I literally spend nearly every waking hour doing stuff for school. I hope it gets better, because if I have to do this for a whole year I will go absolutely insane. I have no balance in my life. I am so stressed about it all the time. If I wake up in the middle of the night I can't go back to sleep because my mind starts racing about stuff for school. I wake up nauseous from stress every morning and I can't usually bring myself to eat anything until snack time with the kids. By Saturday night I am already sick in anticipation of Monday. It's hard. The other day I saw a mailman delivering mail and I found myself longing to work for the postal service. How sad is that? I miss Isaac. He is such a sweet little boy and my time with him now is so fleeting. It makes me feel horrible. If I can't make him more of a priority then what is the point of everything I'm doing? Fortuneatly he is mommy's angel and the kid cracks me up on a regular basis. My mom bought him a goldfish which he has named Dorothy and he is crazy about it. He came in my room sometime between six and seven yesterday with a little green net asking if he could clean the fish bowl. He is also starting to understand our family dynamics a little more. He understands now that Grandpa is my dad (he used to insist that grandpa was his dad). Now when Grandpa walks in the door Isaac will say "Mommy, you're dad is home!" and then laugh hysterically like it's a joke. He still doesn't have a clue about my mom. He has told me more than once that my mom is his OTHER mommy. While this is essentially true, I would rather him not going around telling people he has two mommies. People might get the wrong idea. I had a good talk with my dad last night (while cutting out seven feet of lamination). We have decided unless we find a cheap little house less than 5 miles from my parents I am going to keep living here until Isaac is ready to go to school. It just makes more sense. Although a part of me is disappointed, a part of me is relieved. They have plenty of room for me and it would add a whole new dimension of stress to my life to be on my own right now with Isaac. I have come to the conclusion that I would like to buy some cowboy boots. I was putting away some of my summer clothes and pulling out some of the fall/winter stuff and I decided that my wardrobe is seriously lacking some cowboy boots. Changing our closets over from season to season is one of my favorite things to do. I love culling out the old stuff and packing up all the shoes and pulling out all the new stuff. Fall is definitely in the air now, and I am looking forward to high boots and sweaters. I have a celebrity crush on the rapper T.I. How terrible is that? Well I supposed I should get ready for church...

Thursday, September 4, 2008

quick update

My new job is exhausting but is going better and better. I am getting acclimated and into a routine but it has been completely and utterly EXHAUSTING. I have been getting there an hour or so early and staying an hour or so late and then thre hours of work before bed. I hope it gets better!! Have any of you been watching Tabitha's Salon Takeover on Bravo? It's my new guilty pleasure. I love it. Isaac is spending the night at his dad's tomorrow which is scarey and exciting. It would be nice to have the option to send Isaac there if I ever wanted to go away for a weekend or something. Mean while, I will be going skating and then sleeping as late as I want to for the first time in, about two years. I think the last time I could sleep as late as I want, was when I went to visit my aunt in California and left Isaac home with my mom. More soon.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Aww how cute

A cute picture from our girls day breakfast at the shore, right before I jetted off for my job interview. Left to Right, My fabulous Aunt Kathy, Kami, Jenny, me and my Mom.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Officially: EMPLOYED

* I am totally revolted by the "meatatarian" commercials for Burger King's Baconator. I am by no means a vegetarian, but the commercial is so revolting. Who could eat so much meat on one little bun? * Isaac was giving me orders from the bathtub today and he said "I'm serious", which totally cracked me up. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. "I'm serious" and "Seriously" are definitely words I use and abuse. * My job is going well I guess. I have hit the ground running with a back to school night MY FIRST DAY and it is a LOT coming at me all at once but I think I am really going to love it. It is a lot different than SF schools where I am used to working so there is some culture shock, but I think I am going to love it. I am so blessed to get a contract position four days before school starts. And my health insurance starts 9/1! Hurray! Oh and in case you haven't heard I am doing fulltime autistic support for kindergarten and first grade. * It's starting to feel like fall. Hurray! I survived the summer with no AC in my car! Maybe by the time it gets hot again I can afford to have it fixed. * I freakin love Amazon. I just ordered two books for 18 bucks shipped. Each one is 24 bucks in the teacher's store. It's totally the way to go. * I had a pedicure a few days ago and it was positively divine. My toes are a neon orange color and look quite nice if I do say so myself. * It is hard to get back into the swing of working again. I have been spoiled with such a nice work schedule this summer and so much time off. I seriously hit snooze for about 30 minutes straight this morning (although for the record, I was having a really nice dream that I didn't want to interupt). Isaac has been having a hard time too. Monday and Wednesday have been horrible drop offs at preschool. He has come up with a variety of amusing excuses though including the classic "I can't go to school, I'm sick" and the most creative "I can't go to school, school makes me farty". Hopefully we all get back into real life soon because the two of us thrive on routine. Anyways, that's all for now.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Engine Engine Number Nine, on the New York Transit Line

* Is there a way that this thing can tell you when you have new comments? Like on your dashboard or something? I still don't "get" blogger very well yet. * I totally have racoon tan lines from my week at the beach. Although, the plus side of the situation is, I actually got tan! I know it sounds bizarre but ever since I had Isaac I just don't tan anymore. Is that even possible that pregnancy could change something like that? Kind of like how I was a 6-6.5 shoe size before pregnancy and now I am more like a 7-7.5. I think it is partially because I don't have the time to lay around in the yard sunning myself like I did in high school. I tried tanning beds a few years ago, because I used to go to tanning salons and bake myself dark brown in college but still never really got any color. Then I ran out of money and my dad got skin cancer which made me reconsider tanning beds. I figured I was destined to be hideously pale from here on out, so it was a pleasant surprise that I actually got some color on the beach. * Isaac did great at the beach. He did get a little homesick for "the blue house" but overall I think he really enjoyed himself. It was a nice relaxing family vacation spent napping on the beach, biking around the island and watching the Olympics. I will post some pictures when I figure out where my dad's camera is. * We drove all the way back to Camden Saturday night for the Counting Crows concert. It was awesome, as expected. They toured with Maroon 5, who I have never been very interested in before, but they put on a great show and I thoroughly enjoyed watching the lead singer jump around in his tight pants and shirt. I will definitely check out some of their music now. We had pretty good seats, and we ended up next to this happy drunk John and his coworker Amanda. John was a hardcore Counting Crows fan as well. We ended up dancing and singing together. This guy was a chubby white guy in his early thirties who had no problems busting out ridiculous and entertaining dance moves. It was really fun. He played a lot of the crowd favorites (Mr. Jones, Murder of One) and kept the new album stuff to a minimum which I thought was a wise choice. He closed on Walkaways which I don't think I have ever heard live before. I think that is the 8th time I have seen Counting Crows. Summer's is not summer without a Counting Crows show. * I also drove back home on Monday, for a one o'clock job interview for an autistic support teacher in a local school district. The initial interview went very well. I had a follow-up interview today which I think went all right. I am not as confident now as I was leaving the first one. But I think I was as prepared as I could be, and I can only sit and wait with bated breath. School starts in like a week, so if I don't get this, it looks like I will be doing more subbing. So keep your fingers crossed for me cause I really want/need this job. * Isaac is still on the sibling kick. My mom thinks he will stick with it for a while. This morning he asked if his friend Aleah could come over. I said sure (it has been on my to-do list to arrange a playdate for them anyways). He responded "I need her to be my sister. I don't have any sisters". I feel bad for him, he is always alone. However, I don't think the chances of him having a sibling are that good period, but definitely not anytime soon. Well that's all for now.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

mom...

"Mom-- can you bring me a brother? I don't have one." That was today's tough question. Poor kid is so lonely. In other news, we are relaxing at the beach this week and it is LOVELY.

Friday, August 8, 2008

tantrums -- this too shall pass???

"Usually by the time a child is three or so, tantrums are a thing of the past" -- popular parenting advice giver. Hahahahahaha. From my experience at least, the threes are more terrible than the twos. They are so much smarter and more capable and they know just how to press your buttons and they have perfect timing on when to pitch a fit. We have been tantrum city here lately. Isaac is such a strong will child and I am getting exhausted going toe to toe with him day after day. It could be anything that sends him into a grand mal tantrum. I say no to icecream for breakfast. I accidently flush the toilet when he wanted to. I serve him chicken (a normally highly preferred food) for dinner. Next thing you know he is down on the floor, kicking, thrashing, screaming until he is hoarse. Parenting books say to ignore him but he often grabs onto my legs or follows me around from room to room throwing himself at me, yet refusing any attempts to hold, soothe or comfort him. Target is a frequent location of his worst tantrums. I fully admit that I have reinforced tantrum behavior there by purchasing him toys and candy as a way to avoid public meltdowns. He recieves inconsisent messages from me (and other caregivers) and he definitely uses his tantrum behaviors as a weapon-- a means to an end. I have more than once left a cart full of groceries behind and hauled him off to the car. One time it erupted in the checkout line. I really needed whatever it was we were buying and I wanted to pay and get out. There was an old lady in front of me who was taking her sweet time paying and kept trying to talk to Isaac and me about the tantrum the whole time. "Well what is it he wants? Surely you could give since he is so sad". I attempted to ignore the woman and she finally left so I could pay and haul my screaming son out to the car. I manage to pay for my items, and I attempt to keep one hand on Isaac who is beet red and screaming bloody murder while juggling several heavy bags. We leave Target and he realizes he really isn't getting the toy and he kicks it up another notch. We are both sweaty and I am near tears myself. Well wouldn't you know our friend from the checkout line is parked right next to us and is continuing to stare at me, mouth agape. My plan was to trap Isaac in the car and then attempt to calm and quiet him, or if nothing else to strap him in and drive the 2 minutes home and then deal with him. Of course, he is still set on his toy and is fighting me tooth and nail to get into the carseat. Our elderly friend decides to intervene again. She approaches me. "Excuse me, what is it he wants? Little boy, what is it that has you so upset?" I ignore her and continue to try to stuff Isaac in the car. Please note, I have not spanked Isaac, yelled at him, or done anything in appropriate. I am simply trying to deal with him. "Please, what is it he wants? There must be something you could--" I spin around to look at her and Isaac uses this moment to make a break for it across the parking lot. I take off after him all the while I am screaming over my shoulder at this woman "PLEASE JUST MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!!!!" Fortuneatly Isaac was intercepted by a woman who told me I was doing a good job and offered to put my bags in the car for me. So anyways, now if I ever see a mom dealing with a kid in public, I try to give her a sympathetic smile and I say a little prayer for her.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

oh yeah


And after we went to the zoo, we went to the Plymoth Meeting mall and rode the merry go round. What a fun day!

Officially Unemployed...

Seriously, how cute is this photo?


He was scared of the sheep, but he was still brave and fed them. (Aunt Jenny had to help, because there was no way mom was letting a sheep lick her hand)



Isaac loved this porcupine. You can't see, but he was sticking his nose and paws through the cage towards us.

We went to the Elmwood Park Zoo today. I had a teacher's pass for free admission into the Philly Zoo, but found that with admission for Isaac and my sister, plus 12 bucks to park, there was no way we could afford that. And the Elmwood Park Zoo was wonderful!

So my job ended which is sad. Who knows when I will be working again if I don't have a decent interview pretty soon. I am still a sub, but who knows when there will start being sub jobs again. Pretty scary.

In the meantime I am trying to make the most of it, hence our zoo trip. Yesterday my sister and I had a "Slackers Day" at the shore. Surprisingly, we were able to round up a total of seven people who had nothing better to do on a Monday than lay around on the beach and tossing around a football. It was a fun day. I was pretty vigilant about the sunscreen too, so I didn't even end up totally fried like normal. Sadly, it was not the best possible beach day. I don't think I have ever seen the water so calm and flat. There were seriously no waves; you could see for miles. We tried and tried to boogie board but to no avail. Also, there was a seaweed issue. The first 5 to 10 feet of the water was this horrible curtain of seaweed with all of these little crustaceans mixed in. So if you did manage to catch a wave, you ended up being enveloped in a thick layer of green gook. It was a really sick sensation. Gotta love the Jersey Shore. Other than that, it was a great day, that no one really documented on film.






Wednesday, July 30, 2008

A few of my favorite things

* Skinny Cow icecream sandwiches * Coldplay's new album * Dan in Real Life. Just watched it again with my sister. It's still a fantastic movie. * Sneaking out of work ten minutes early. * Pink anything * Plain M and M's. * The Limerick Outlets * Flip-flops * A really good book you can't put down (Life of Pi was my most recent like that) * Catnaps

Monday, July 28, 2008

FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHT!

I guess this district has no Sikh's either... http://abclocal.go.com/ktrk/story?section=news/local&id=6239670 Kindergartener's fight for long hair Wednesday, July 02, 2008 9:59 AM By Gene Apodaca FORT BEND COUNTY (KTRK) -- The parents of a kindergartener in Fort Bend County are fighting for his right to have long hair in school. They say it's about freedom of religion. The Needville Independent School District says it needs proof. When Adriel Arocha, 5, was born, his father, Kenney, vowed to teach him his heritage. "We feel that it's important to raise him as Native American until he's able to make a choice," said Kenny. And part of that heritage meant he would not to cut his son's hair, believing hair holds spiritual meaning. "It tells us how long I've been here, by your hair, so it's your history," Adriel said. "It's our tradition it's what we do," Kenney said. All that was fine until Adriel's parents planned to enroll the five-year-old at Needville Elementary School. Despite promising to keep his hair neatly braided, the district refused to accept him. "I knew they would probably be a little difficult but I didn't expect it to be this bad," said his mother Michelle Betenbaugh. District policy clearly states student's hair needs to be kept out of the eyes. No hair can cover any part of the ear, a standard collar and no tufts or tails are allowed. The superintendent says exceptions are made for religion, but Adriel's parents have yet to provide proof of their beliefs. "I was trying to find out what recognized religion they are that discusses they cannot cut their hair and the information I received then was basically it's their choice," said Needville ISD Superintendent Curtis Rhodes. Near the school some residents felt the district was going too far. "I don't think longer hair than their ears is going to hurt their education," said Needville resident Jana Hausler. "If it has to do with his religion, I don't think anyone should infringe on their religious rights," resident Jamie Hausler said. Adriel's parents say they plan to appeal the decision, even if it means going to court. "You can't deny a person their rights," Kenney said. As for Adriel himself, he's pretty clear what he wants.

Monday, Monday

Wow, so my past two blogs were really whiny. Sorry.
Things have been much better. First-- my sister is home! Hurray!
Second, Isaac has been a lot better. I plan to accidentlyonpurpose forget his binky when we go to the shore for a week on August 9th. That's how we got him off of his night time bottle. So typically on Sundays my mom takes Isaac to church at the ward she and my dad attend (spanish speaking) and I go to the city to the singles ward. I am so blessed. It works out so well. If my parents are out of town, I generally take Isaac to my English speaking family ward. It is very rare that there is a situation when I must take him with me to a family ward. However, this past Sunday was one of those times. My parents dropped him off on their way to the airport and he attended our combined RS/Priesthood meeting where we were learning about the ward mission plan. He was pretty good throughout (especially since singles wards are so silent you can hear a pin drop). However, he was bothered by one of the pictures on the handouts. It was a picture of a statue of the Savior. He points to it.
"Mom, who is that?"
"Isaac, it's Jesus"
"No it's not..... Mom, who is that man?"
"Shh, Isaac it's Jesus."
"NO IT'S NOT! JESUS IS NOT ALL WHITE... Mom, who is that man?" This repeats about five more times until he is being so disruptive I have to take him out to the hallway.
When we are out in the hallway he points to a color painting of the Savior and says "See, there's Jesus! JESUS IS NOT ALL WHITE! JESUS IS BROWN LIKE ME!" I had a good laugh about that for, like, an hour. I've really got to replace my camera so I can get some recent shots of him up here. The one above is older but still very Isaac. He loves dancing, Spiderman, the Hulk, riding his tricycle, Little Einstien's and Transformers. He is 100% boy, despite my efforts to enroll him dance class (absolutely refused to attend) and expose him to "girl" toys (the only time he ever uses his dollhouse is as a stepstool to reach his lightswitch). He is the light of my life.
It's the last week of my job. I will be really sad to have this one end. It's so easy and such good money. I work 8:30-2:30-- best hours ever. Even if I get a contract position, I might do it again next summer just to keep busy and have some extra cash.
Okay, one last thing. Is there a way to subscribe to your friend's blogs on this thing? Like, so when you sign it tells you that your friends have posted new blogs? Just curious. I am still getting the hang of things. If anyone out there knows, let me know!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Whining makes my ears bleed

I can't take any more of it. Isaac has an immense vocabulary. This is why I can't understand why the last few weeks he has been resorting to straight up cat scratching on a chalkboard whining. It is generally accompanied by throwing himself on the ground and kicking his feet and banging his head. It's obnoxious and it's intolerable and I have very little patience for it. Anytime he doesn't get his way he breaks out into it. I don't even understand why he does it, since 80% of the time we have no idea what has him so upset and we cannot understand him at all to try to help him. It just feels like he is really regressing which of course is troubling. He binky which we had almost faded out (yes he is 3.5 and still uses a binky-- don't judge-- we never meant for it to happen) is almost always in his mouth and his toilet training is regressing also. I wish I knew what to do. I wish I was more patient with him. So I have been hitting up all of the kiddy movies this summer now that Isaac has discovered he loves the movies. We have seen Kung Fu Panda (two thumbs up!), Space Chimps (one opposable thumb up) and Wall E (we only saw the first half because Isaac gorged himself on popcorn and had to leave before it was over. I haven't seen many grown up movies lately though. So yesterday I ran up to the outlets because I heard that the kids stores were having huge markdowns on summer stuff and boy were they ever. I always buy a year ahead for Isaac off the clearance rack. I started off at The Children's Place. I got shirts for less than 2 bucks and jeans for 2.99, cargo shorts and mesh shorts. Then I moved on to Carter's where I got pajamas sets for 6 bucks each. Then I moved onto OshKosh where the sales weren't as good. I had been buying 5t but when I got to Osh Kosh I made a sad discovery. They don't carrying 5t! 5 is 5/6 in the BOYS department. I left the store promptly. I am not ready to leave the toddler department behind yet. I stopped into Gymboree. I usually avoid that store because their clothes are horribly over priced and not that cute (at least the boys side). I don't really get all the hype. I know moms who are crazy about that store and buy entire lines for their kids. I did pick up a 2.99 tank top and 4.99 cargo shorts. I rounded out my shopping trip at Gap Kids. It was a productive hour at the outlets. I also got a new duvet cover for my bed from Target for only 8 bucks. My comforter becomes a drop cloth for Isaac's breakfast each morning and is starting to look a little shabby. Gotta stretch those dollars. What else? Well, there is no news on the job front, of course. I'm trying to keep my head up but it is getting harder and harder to keep hope. I have only two weeks left at my current job (extended school year) and then nothing. I really don't want to sub again for another year. It's so frustrating. At this point I really am considering, like, Chester schools. My student loans are now due (and the total I have amassed in loans is nothing short of horrifying) and I cannot make the payments on a sub's salary. Not to mention, it has been a year now since I have had health insurance. One of these days I would actually like to go to the doctor if I get sick, or possibly even get prescription medicine. It should not be this hard for a special ed teacher to get a contract position. And, if one more person tells me I should be an instructional assistant I am going to scream. I am a certified teacher with a master's degree. I am not going to take a job that requires only a high school diploma. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Anyways, onto happier topics, my sister comes home Tuesday and I CAN NOT wait. August is going to be a fun month-- Counting Crows, a week at the shore.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Hello, hello

I have been blogging on myspace for a little over four years now, but I have decided to switch over to this site for a variety of reasons. However, I'm still figuring out how this site works, so don't expect anything too fancy too soon. I was reading through a friends blog (shout out to kristeee) and it really brought me back to when Isaac was a newborn and the sleep deprived, running on empty emotional mess I was back then as I was juggling the unexpected reality of being a single mom (if you don't know, ask), going back to work in a new position at a physically demanding job when Isaac was eight weeks old and leaving him at daycare, and taking graduate classes. I'm surprised I made it out alive to be honest. It's crazy to me to look at my wise cracking three year old putting on his own shoes and riding a tricycle and jumping feet first into the the deep end of the swimming pool and it seriously tugs at my heart strings. Where did my *baby* go? I was working and working and doing practicums and going to classes and driving and driving and I really feel like I missed out on the best parts of his babyhood. I do not regret any of what I did, and even if my circumstances had been different I would still want a career (no offense to ANYONE but stay at home mommyhood is NOT for me). However, I always worry that Isaac will be my only child and that I will never get a chance to really savor the best parts of babyhood. Anyways, I don't mean to make my first blog such a depressing one.

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